OCDoesntcontrolme
- Date posted
- 2y
Isolation
Can OCD try to isolate you? Seems like all my current themes are trying to drive me to push everyone in my life away out of guilt and fear of doing something that will make me feel guilty
Leenabean25Leenabean25
- Date posted
- 2y
Sometimes I wonder if my brain developed this from some part of me that believes they can’t or shouldn’t be loved. It’s almost like a barrier to intimacy. A self sabotaging system built to keep me in a cage by myself. Going right back to what you said. Isolation.
Leenabean25Leenabean25
- Date posted
- 2y
Maybe the answer is to keep convincing ourselves that we deserve what we have so our body will stop fighting it
OCDoesntcontrolmeOCDoesntcont...
- Date posted
- 2y
Or maybe its to challenge the OCD as hard as possible, by sitting with the uncertainty of "maybe I don't deserve this" and let it burn itself out. Its just so hard, it seems so easy to push everyone away but in reality, that's the last thing I want
Leenabean25Leenabean25
- Date posted
- 2y
@OCDoesntcontrolme I do everything possible to avoid sitting with the thought I’m afraid of. I think you’re right, it will tire itself out if it’s not fed. And pushing them away in reality is just another compulsion. It won’t solve the problems our OCD is telling us about. It will only validate them into reality.
Utter-Train-WreckUtter-Train-...
- Date posted
- 2y
Only 100% of the time
Leenabean25Leenabean25
- Date posted
- 2y
I feel a constant urge to end relationships because they cause me so much anxiety and I hurt people so much with my confessions
OCDoesntcontrolmeOCDoesntcont...
- Date posted
- 2y
Which hurts because those relationships give me the most joy, even if my OCD tries to convince me otherwise..
Leenabean25Leenabean25
- Date posted
- 2y
@OCDoesntcontrolme That resonates with me. I feel like I’m being so ungrateful for the joy and fulfillment they bring me. I’m too busy focusing on the negatives and letting my ROCD blind me to what I actually have
OCDoesntcontrolmeOCDoesntcont...
- Date posted
- 2y
@Leenabean25 You are so right. And even when you're feeling great, someone OCD will throw a shitty feeling in there and try to ruin the good time. Just more opportunities for CBT and ERP I guess, but its still scary knowing your own brain can do these things to you and try to isolate you from your loved ones
OCDoesntcontrolmeOCDoesntcont...
- Date posted
- 2y
We just have to trust that we fell for our partners for a reason, and no matter what OCD can tell us, there is no perfect person out there, so all of our person's flaws are things to love them for, and the grass isn't greener on the other side. I remember thinking before I got with my GF when I was single, things aren't amazing right now, the single isn't that glorious, and I did that to try and fight these current thoughts of being in a relationship and wanting to run
Leenabean25Leenabean25
- Date posted
- 2y
@OCDoesntcontrolme Reflecting on life before them is a great exercise. I was really lonely, desperately wanted a partner to depend on, someone to support me and spend time with me. And now that I have it I keep thinking how smothered I feel and how I’m losing my independence. But if I stop and evaluate, what I call independence was just loneliness. None of the thoughts I have are rooted in reality it’s all just rose colored glasses. I struggle with finding flaws in him in every situation over even the tiniest things. My OCD wants me to believe these things are important. But why would I feel love for him and want him in my life if he was as awful as my mind wants me to believe? I think maybe we should start trusting our hearts instead of our minds
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