It has been a year

I’m in the same boat. I did school for a year, couldn’t do it anymore and dropped out. Took a year off. Tried to do school again for a year, couldn’t get myself to do anything. Didn’t have the motivation. College is not for everyone. Just reading something would make me extremely anxious and make my OCD worse. And also my OCD would make it hard for me to do schoolwork. Don’t beat yourself up for it. Take your time to get better and get busy doing stuff you enjoy. Maybe get a job doing something you like so you feel like you’re accomplishing something and also making money. Or just take some classes doing something that takes your mind off things. Whatever you feel comfortable with! Good luck and I hope you feel better. Give yourself some time and you’ll figure it out.

I don't want to disappoint you just telling my story. 5 years ago I left a PhD program for the same reason. Know I wish I had never done that.

Don't let OCD stop you from achieving your goals. I know it's hard, but you don't want to look back and see that this preventes you from living a fulfilling life. In fact, isolating yourself from these things may make OCD harder to break from since you've shown it that it can tell you how to live your life.

It's been five years since I quit high school to work on my mental health. The best thing I found to do is to find a way to start slow and do a little bit of course work to keep yourself busy/distract yourself from your OCD. It can feel good to accomplish a worksheet, or finish a chapter in a textbook. I found it also helps to look at where your education could get you. Be excited by the cool things you could learn and contribute to. But most of all, just take a deep breath, practice self-care and keep yourself busy.

Did you do ERP therapy? What’s your values?