OCD, I probably have it. I'm 71. It's too late ...

Thank you. I just realized I have OCD. My daughter thinks she's a psychologist bc she's got a BS in psychology. She's had zero experience with people who are SMI. Yet, she had labeled me as Bipolar! I am not Bipolar. I'm not manic/depressive - I was sexually abused by maternal grandmother since age 5 and then when I was 10 my mother married a rocket scientist who was a pedophile and he constantly tried to feel my breasts and then at same age, stepbrother who was 16 put his hand down my pajama bottom and was touching my pubic area there was no penetration because I pulled his hand away. I never told anybody about these molestations. I was told "All Kids are Brats! Children Are To Be Seen and Not Heard. You Will Only Speak When You Are Spoken To. Kids Are To Be Seen and Not Heard. My childhood was filled with abuse: Emotional, Physical, Sexual. and then I Married a man that was just like my mom, only he was brilliant (very high IQ), highly educated and even more manipulative & sadistic and all my daughter, my mom, my ex-husband think about it money and how to get more - no matter what it takes. I'm going to make my new life so happy. I've already taken steps to begin ... I adopted two sisters from a rescue shelter. They are so smart and so loving and I love spoiling them. Yet I find myself thinking about how my own daughter threw me under the bus many times. I had to face the truth. To her, I'm old, senile, and boring. She said she had no time for me. No time to help me whatsoever including - "DO NOT USE ME AS a EMERGENCY CONTACT" and I haven't given anybody her name. Now, I babysat my two Grands for 7 years. I didn't receive Money for Gas nor did I receive any money for Babysitting 10 hrs plus a day. I was promised a "Costco" card but I never got it. There was no reciprocating at all. I am scared my unlucky streak is going to follow me forever.

@thesa52@gmail.com I know I am OCD - intrusive thoughts about my past abuse is relentless.

@thesa52@gmail.com I’m truly sorry to hear about some of your misfortunes in life. No one should have to go through that specially multiple times. I would definitely recommend seeing an actual therapist and not your daughter. I’m glad you’re taking your first steps. Keep it up! It’s never to late. You can end on a high note. We always can

@JordTheNord Thanks friend. I needed to hear that.