thesa52@gmail.com
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- 2y
OCD, I probably have it. I'm 71. It's too late ...
I'm sad because it's too late for me to get over OCD. š¢
ReadyForImprovementReadyForImpr...
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- 2y
I agree. It's never too late! You have many many good years ahead. ERP helps and your world opens up even while you're still working toward recovery.
paulinacoffinpaulinacoffin
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- 2y
itās never ever too late!!! you deserve to feel your best and youāre not alone. thereās always something new to learn every day, especially when it comes to yourself. you deserve to live the life you want to live, and this community is here to help you do that. every day is a new day. sending all my love and strength to you my friend, weāre in this together ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
JordTheNordJordTheNord
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- 2y
Never to late!! I believe in you. Iām not going to say I have felt your pain but I understand the anxiety and desperation of feeling like time is up to get over OCD. I will follow up with this. YOU ABSOLUTELY MATTER AND CAN DO THIS. Everyday you can find moments of peace. Please donāt give up. Iām sure itās very hard I will never disagree on that but please I 100% believe you can find peace to enjoy the remainder of your life and not let OCD run it. See a therapist, talk to ppl, ask for advice on coping (not suggesting you havenāt done this) just anything to keep fighting the good fight of your happiness and peace. I wish you the best
thesa52@gmail.comthesa52@gmai...
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- 2y
Thank you. I just realized I have OCD. My daughter thinks she's a psychologist bc she's got a BS in psychology. She's had zero experience with people who are SMI. Yet, she had labeled me as Bipolar! I am not Bipolar. I'm not manic/depressive - I was sexually abused by maternal grandmother since age 5 and then when I was 10 my mother married a rocket scientist who was a pedophile and he constantly tried to feel my breasts and then at same age, stepbrother who was 16 put his hand down my pajama bottom and was touching my pubic area there was no penetration because I pulled his hand away. I never told anybody about these molestations. I was told "All Kids are Brats! Children Are To Be Seen and Not Heard. You Will Only Speak When You Are Spoken To. Kids Are To Be Seen and Not Heard. My childhood was filled with abuse: Emotional, Physical, Sexual. and then I Married a man that was just like my mom, only he was brilliant (very high IQ), highly educated and even more manipulative & sadistic and all my daughter, my mom, my ex-husband think about it money and how to get more - no matter what it takes. I'm going to make my new life so happy. I've already taken steps to begin ... I adopted two sisters from a rescue shelter. They are so smart and so loving and I love spoiling them. Yet I find myself thinking about how my own daughter threw me under the bus many times. I had to face the truth. To her, I'm old, senile, and boring. She said she had no time for me. No time to help me whatsoever including - "DO NOT USE ME AS a EMERGENCY CONTACT" and I haven't given anybody her name. Now, I babysat my two Grands for 7 years. I didn't receive Money for Gas nor did I receive any money for Babysitting 10 hrs plus a day. I was promised a "Costco" card but I never got it. There was no reciprocating at all. I am scared my unlucky streak is going to follow me forever.
thesa52@gmail.comthesa52@gmai...
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- 2y
@thesa52@gmail.com I know I am OCD - intrusive thoughts about my past abuse is relentless.
JordTheNordJordTheNord
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@thesa52@gmail.com Iām truly sorry to hear about some of your misfortunes in life. No one should have to go through that specially multiple times. I would definitely recommend seeing an actual therapist and not your daughter. Iām glad youāre taking your first steps. Keep it up! Itās never to late. You can end on a high note. We always can
thesa52@gmail.comthesa52@gmai...
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@JordTheNord Thanks friend. I needed to hear that.
thesa52@gmail.comthesa52@gmai...
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I need to make a correction and that is : I babysat my Grands for 5 yrs. During the day, my son-in-law would break into my condo regularly. He left traces of his unauthorized break in visits i.e. his "Watch Cap" and he stole money and gift cards for money that my mom would send me. Also stoley hand held garage door opener.
thesa52@gmail.comthesa52@gmai...
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- 2y
Son-in-law rings my doorbell in the middle of the night. He rang my doorbell 3 weeks ago. First he rang the rear doorbell next to my garage and then he rang my front porch doorbell. I have to buy security cameras.
thesa52@gmail.comthesa52@gmai...
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- 2y
I am afraid to fall asleep. Afraid he might enter my condo while I sleep. I only get about 3 hours of sleep each night.
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