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Talk to your therapist. It could be that your exposure is too hard for you right now. Your therapist may be able to suggest a different exposure for you to try.

I thought something similar when I started. Had a lot of doubts about my ability to handle the situations I was asked to do. Personally I read that the difference between a trigger and an exposure is intent and it changed everything for me. Now I know ima be trigger today anyways I mean ocd isn't known to take a day off so if I am the one who says when and what that is then I'm doing the work rather than just suffering. Before I realized it as I was working through the exposures I was in areas I remember saying "I could never". I hope maybe that saying clicks some where in you as well and agree with OCDEB that you should discuss openly what is happening with your therapist. Stay strong you've done this before. The difference is now you're facing it and now allowing it to jump scare you.

I second talking to your therapist about another exposure option or maybe a "smaller dose" of the exposure if that makes sense. But remember what you said! It is going to be some struggle and a fight. I personally find it exciting that if you can work through the exposure therapy, it'll get easier and one day we will say "wow, it's pretty neat that this doesn't bother me!" Try to be optimistic, but remember to take it easy and not to push your head. I think youre asking important questions.

Definitely talk to your therapist they would usually work on a list of activity rated from simpler erp activities to more challenging At first it should be out of your comfort zone a little but definitely not a big activity Have that chat they should help straighten stuff out Wishing you the best with ERP

It is worth doing the exposure, even though it’s really hard. You can do hard things. Hang in there and like others have said, talk to your therapist about doing an easier exposure first.

thank you for everyone’s comments back! i have trouble telling people some things sometimes and was planning to tell my therapist how i feel over text but am having trouble putting something together