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Hi everyone, I’m 24 and I have OCD. I think my main themes are existential OCD & Psychosis/schizophrenia OCD. Sometimes at home when I have to go outside I started being anxious and worried. I think it’s due to my existential OCD because I’m always asking what is the purpose of life, why me, everything is real?? And sometimes when I think to much I feel I’m lost. I like I just arrived on earth and learning everything again. I know it’s weird. But recently I start having like “paranoia”. Isn’t someone want to hurt me or something like that, it’s more I don’t like being outside and not feeling well and anxious/ overwhelmed. Do you had the same? I’m constantly afraid of being schizophrenic Thank you