SOMEBODY HELP ME

I got rid of sexual intrusive thoughts obssesions, now HARM OCD cams back and last night I was in the kitchen and I wanted to make sure my HARM OCD is gone for good so I grabbed my cat and I was sitting with her in my arms near that knife, everything good until intrusive thoughts and urges came oit of nowhere and I felt like they were my own thoughts and I feel so sick and I feel like a psycho. Why do I must have this mental issue? I feel so ashamed and I've been crying sincs last night because what if I wanted to hurt my cat? No lover of animals would ever think like that. I think I'm going insane.. It's like I don't know me anymore.. Don't tell me it's my OCD or something like that. What if I'm on the process to become a killer? I don't want that to happen.

sol ☆

Date posted: 2y

They are NEVER your thoughts. And I will tell you that it's your ocd because it literally is and there is no other reason. You are not alone in this because I know how this feels. I have a dog and everytime I'm cuddling him my ocd shows up and tells me to strangle him. You don't want to hurt your cat, you are not a killer and you are not in the process of becoming one. It's a junk thought and it holds no meaning.

anonymoussehrh

Date posted: 2y

Then why do I get these intrusive thoughts? I feel like I don't deserve a pet. It wasn't like that before, I was fine, just random intrusive thoughts but not including harming or sexually abusing someone. I don't want to live with these thoughts, I feel like I will become the opposite of myself. What if someday I tell my story and everyone will think I actually wanted to hurt my pets? What if I will harm them?

luverlytwizzles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@cartoonlover Ocd loves to make you stay in the “what if”. You need to remember that ruminating won’t change the situation and will only let ocd grow stronger. Accept that those thoughts could mean something and they could not. Try to rephrase stuff as a “maybe” and dismiss it. Ex: maybe I’ll hurt my cat, maybe not. Maybe I am worried about my cat’s wellbeing and instead of enjoying time with her I am focused on hurting her. Try to discover what you value out of that rumination. You obviously love your cat and you don’t want anything to happen to her so tell yourself you value her safety.

sol ☆

Date posted: 2y

@cartoonlover There is no reason for why we have ocd and get these thougths, we are unfortunately just born like this. Pets can help with mental struggles and you totally deserve one! No one wants this and it's so miserable and awful to live with I know. There are ways to win the battle with ocd and I'm sure you will succeed in it. When you tell your story to others, if they can't understand your struggles and if they look at you through your ocd, then that's on them and they need to be taught about it. You are not your ocd, and I can't stress this enough.

sol ☆

Date posted: 2y

@sol ☆ Also when i said there is no reason, that's wrong my bad, some people get it beacuse of trauma, some because of emotional stress, but still you can't control what disorder you'll get and what disorder you won't!

anonymoussehrh

Date posted: 2y

@sol ☆ thank you! 🥺

sol ☆

Date posted: 2y

@cartoonlover always <33

RMO2023

Date posted: 2y

Ufff yes.... it's tough. But everything everyone wrote here is true. And God calls us to TRUST and RELY on HIM alone. This serves for us to realize how sinful our human condition can be, how gracious God is, and to trust in Him for everything. Take heart, pray, read the Word and seek therapy.

anonymoussehrh

Date posted: 2y

Thank you!

lu22

Date posted: 23w

I really need advice harm ocd

I know we’re not meant to ask for reassurance but I’m currently not in therapy and I need help, it feels scarily real and I feel like I’m not anxious or worried over the thoughts. I had stabbing thoughts about someone I care about and I started deliberately imagining them to test myself to see if I hate it or not but instead it felt like I knew how it feels to stab someone and like the feeling of doing that physical action and I swear it is the worst thing I have ever experienced as well I had moments where it felt like It was about to happen or I keep getting this really sick ‘happy’ feeling that I want to do that and I don’t know what that is but it feels incredibly real almost like I was getting a happy feeling or wanted to do that thing and jsut wasn’t giving into it and now I’m thinking I’m actually evil and it feels like I get a pleasurable feeling over the thought of doing that and would want to do it?? Because I ‘like’ the feeling of doing it or it would ‘feel’ good I swear I really don’t know what to do it feels incredibly real I feel like I can’t even say that I’m worried or scared because I feel like I’m lying and actually want it and have evil desires I’m really concerned, I have never done anything bad in my life, I feel like what if through experimenting and imagining the thoughts to test myself I have suddenly discovered I like it because it feels extremely real that I would ‘enjoy’ or like Doing that evil thing and it’s really concerning, i don’t understand I was fine a few days ago and suddenly I’m experiencing this? Is it possible to suddenly become evil i don’t want to be evil, but what if i like it and my desire to not be evil isn’t as strong as this ‘happy feeling’ i wish I can be normal I don’t want any of this please but I swear I feel like there is something wrong with me, I think this is the worst I’ve ever felt, like it feels like I want it and would enjoy it and it’s making me feel really worried but at the same time I don’t even know if I’m worried please help I need advice

Legends123.

Date posted: 23w

Please help

Hello everyone, forgive my bad English since it is not my native language, I have been suffering from OCD for 6 years now. It started with being afraid of harming my loved ones and soon it escalated. All of this leads us here towards sexual obsessions. I was abused many times when I was a child. I don't know if that had any impact on my sexual issues. so everything lead up to a intrusive tought of what would happend if i touch myself with a picture of your parents" and I ended up paying attention to the intrusive tought and i ended up doing what my intrusive tought told me so i said to me "OCD would make me touch myself for everything i loved so what, i would do it before the anxiety attacks" and I end up in a spiral of having touched myself by several photos of my family members, friends and even my own therapist all wanting to prevent future compulsions and anxiety now I only think about taking my life, I never wanted that to happen I am not a monster who has sexual desire towards my loved ones I fell under my own intrusive thought and the only thing I think about now is taking my life life for what I've done

Astjtoju13!

Date posted: 22w

Harm ocd

Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster

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