- Date posted
- 2y
tired :(
i keep to find the answer is it true or just false memories. I tried so many ways to find the answer but never find the 100% answer. some point, my friend just introduce some book, the name is “book of answer”. the book is for fun, its like Place one hand on the cover of the book, concentrate on a closed-ended question while stroking the edge of the pages until you sense the right time to open the book. You will find the answers to all your questions within one of pages from this book. and my ocd start play, i really want to asking about things that really disturbing my mind. i start asking did i ever do “X” , and i say God please answer me” and suddenly when I open, i saw “Yes”, ofcourse i get shocked and start thinking its God’s answer. and i keep stressing about this. if I did, why im not remembered. but i cant stop to not find the answer, if i do something, example, when i working, I need to using scaler to weigh the rice 260gr every bowl, and im thinking again, if i can put the rice 1 times on the bowl and exactly 260gr, it means my thinking its true not false memories, and i say again God please give me answer this time, and then EXACTLY 260grm. i really dont know.. if I really OCD, if i really have false memories ocd, why God always answer me “yes” for something that I doubting. even though i have so many the other episode about my false memories ocd, and it never prove I did. but in this case, i really feel i need to admit because God say yes :( anyone can help me? what should i do