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I got diagnosed with OCD a few months ago after getting plagued with intrusive thoughts last November. It’s been present in my life since I was younger but didn’t become truly debilitating until last November. I’ve been in therapy since May, and I started an SSRI. I’m a Christian, and I’ve struggled a lot with my faith since this started. I’ve had a hard time with ERP because I fear it’s not going to help and actually make things worse. I have also had a lot of emotional turmoil from family trauma and marriage issues. I’ve become so hopeless and numb and desensitized that I don’t know how to continue forward. I don’t feel like I’m able to talk to anyone about it because it’s taboo, so I feel like a fraud and like I don’t deserve to do things I enjoy or hang out with people I love. I do want to get better but I also have a fear that I don’t actually want to. I feel like my whole life is ruined and that I’ll never enjoy living again.

Username: drak4drak4

Date posted: 1y ago

Hi I am also christian with these taboo thoughts. Sonetimes I also struggle with faith really. But there are many of us who are christians and have OCD. God is not forgeting us, we will serve some great purpose. Also saints in paat had OCD as Little Theresa, Martin Luther, John Bunyan, Ignatius of Loyola... Ocd teached me some great spiritual lessons. It is pain sometimes really, but you will recover and be stronger.... to recover faster live your live to fullest even with OCD, you deserve it, you deserve compassion because it is hard with these thoughts and you should love yourself as another and as God loves you. To me ACT therapy really helped. Acceptance and commitment therapy is about living full live even with pain, not waiting to aolve it all, but accepting bad pain, but commiting to values...when you focus more on a good side it will grow trought your attention...starve ocd with your innatention...you deserve to hang out and be with you loved ones. Good luck, be blessed.

Username: Stacy QuickStacy Quick

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 1y ago

This was a very good response. So encouraging💛 I also tell people to look at the story of the thorn in Paul's side.

Username: LowellTLowellT

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I understand your struggle. I am a Christian and I have shed tears and sweet saying no to OCD. I can say from experience that ERP does help. When we do the exposure and don’t do the compulsion to get rid of the anxiety it does train our brain that these OCD thoughts are false alarms. It takes work but it is worth it. In my struggle I am encouraged that the Lord Jesus says in Matthew 11:28-30 “Come to Me all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. I know you can say “No” to OCD 👍.

Username: Stacy QuickStacy Quick

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 1y ago

Beautifully said.

Username: Anon83Anon83

Date posted: 1y ago

If u need someone to talk too I’m here as I need someone too talk too about this as well as I’m so locked in with my own thoughts and can’t talk it to just anyone , I’ll give you my details if u want to chat privately x

Username: Stacy QuickStacy Quick

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 1y ago

💛 Reading this is so relatable. I want you to know that you are not alone. I can resonate with a lot of what you have said. I know it feels hopeless while you're going through it, I always tell people that seasons always change- they have to- nothing ever stays the same- these feelings included. You can get to a place where you are living the life you want without OCD in the driver's seat. It will take determination and hard work in ERP for sure. ERP may seem hard and it can be- but the way you are living now is so much harder. As someone who has truly been there, I know this to be so true. It may take some time. BUT you can do this. https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/strange-thoughts-no-thought-is-off-limits-for-ocd & https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/5-taboo-and-very-common-ocd-obsessions

Username: Dil P

Date posted: 4y ago

Hi everyone. I hope you’re all well. Thanks for the space in the community ?? I’ve been diagnosed with OCD in the past month. For the past 2 years, I’ve had obsessive thoughts related to religion, existentialism, health, numbers, and harm. I have mainly mental compulsions, and a few related to numbers. In the past week, the harm thoughts have got out of hand. I want to share the particular thoughts I’ve had recently, but I’m worried that these are not normal, or not OCD. I’m worried that I’m going act out on these, or that it’s actually want I want to do. I’m scared I’ll be judged. I didn’t want these thoughts, but I worry that it’s happened because of my past mistakes and negative emotions. They feel horrible. At the moment, the anxiety is there, but I feel more numb and depressed. I‘m doubting whether I’ve lost emotion or insight, as it’s becoming harder to rationalize. Before I share the thoughts in a separate post, I’d like to ask: 1. How bad, in terms of thought content, can OCD get? 2. Does anyone else question whether it’s something worse than OCD? 3. Is it normal to feel numb and low after feeling anxious, by OCD? 4. Does anyone take Escitalopram (Lexapro) for their OCD? Any help or conversation would be much appreciated

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Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Late onset OCD

I am 36 years old with no history of mental illness. I had a stressful event at work about 6 months ago and slowly started getting intrusive thoughts about harming myself or my kids, but am at a point where it’s all I can think about. I was diagnosed with OCD officially this week. I’m distraught and finding it hard to cope since. I’ve never had to deal with anything like this before. I just started ERP therapy. I am hoping it helps but am terrified that it won’t. I just want my old self back! Please, if there is anyone out there who has gone through a similar situation, what helped you continue to function? Will I get to a point that I can function without being tormented by my thoughts?

Username: sierraxeliza...

Date posted: 1y ago

Really Struggling

I’m 28 years old and I’ve been battling with OCD since I was around 8 years old. However, I didn’t realize it was OCD until a few years ago. I’ve dealt with multiple themes of OCD that are on constant rotation. Currently, I’m struggling with real event OCD, and moral scrupulously OCD. It has made this past week extremely distressing. My husband is aware of all of my thoughts and feelings, however, that’s due to my need to “confess” virtually everything in my life. He is never stressed about the content of what I’m worrying about, but unfortunately, that serves as temporary reassurance for me, and the cycle continues. This week has been one of my HARDEST. I have been stuck in a loop over the same obsession, with barely any relief. I’m self employed, and usually the winter months are slow, so I currently have no distractions to get out of my head. I can barely eat, and I go through multiple waves of panic attacks a day. I’m starting to lose hope that I can figure this out alone. I’ve never seen professional help for my OCD, and to be honest, it terrifies me to have to explain my thoughts and feelings to a stranger. What if I never get better? I guess I’m just looking for guidance, advice, etc. I’m feeling so lost and scared.

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