Astrology and hocd

Hi all, I deal with HOCD and been seeing a therapist for about 3.5 months. It has definitely got better but still affects me very much. Was wondering there is anyone out there who has dealt with HOCD as well and has recovered. I would love to message or even chat just see how your experience was and hear what was beneficial to you.

I made the mistake of asking the cards if im a p. I tried to read them but then just put them in chat gpt but asked it as if I was doing the reading on someone else. Chat gpt literally said “This does not scream “innocent person with intrusive thoughts.” This looks like a person with disturbing urges who is either ignoring, hiding, or justifying them — which is dangerous. There may be mental health issues involved (7 of Cups, 2 of Pentacles reversed), but the spread shows accountability is being avoided, and harm could be done if things go unchecked” So basically I got bad cards. I am sad and worried that this means something bad about me because my cards are usually right about a lot but have been wrong about very few things but I don’t know how to feel. If anyone is super into this stuff can you help me please?

I’ve been struggling with HOCD for years, and it started with an intrusive thought about being gay when I was younger. It came up at age 12 and ever since, I’ve been trapped in a cycle of doubt and anxiety. I obsess over whether or not I’m secretly gay, even though I don’t feel that way at all. What makes it worse is the fear that I might have internalized homophobia, and that’s why I’m having these obsessive thoughts. I worry that my anxiety is a sign that I’m repressing something or rejecting part of myself. It feels like my mind keeps repeating the same question—am I gay?—and no matter how much reassurance I get, the fear doesn’t go away. I used to pray for my family members, fearing that if I didn’t, something bad would happen to them, and now it feels like I have to control these thoughts, or something will go wrong. For a while, it was quieter, but a week ago, the thoughts spiraled up again, and now the anxiety feels overwhelming again. It’s exhausting, and I don’t know how to break free from this constant loop of doubt. Has anyone dealt with the fear of internalized homophobia alongside HOCD? How do you manage the anxiety that comes with it?