Just Right OCD has hijacked my life , all my life.

If you can relate, please share, I'm feeling very isolated in this. I feel debilitated by Just Right OCD almost 24/7. I've had this all my life, and it's been very fueled by trauma over time. I don't know how not to do Just Right compulsions, because I've never seen them separate from me, but rather just how I am, how I live. How I do my hair, how I eat, how I write, is with Just Right OCD right up on in there. I've never not had this: I ONLY KNOW LIFE WITH IT, SUCKING UP MY TIME. Between this and executive dysfunction from other disorders, I've only really lived my life to 10% of my potential. It's not like "oh hey this is a new theme external to my identity". It's very isolating, even in this community.

Username: strongadultstrongadult

Date posted: 1y ago

I get how you’re feeling man. I’m really stressed out because I’m gonna be going to college for the first time ever in 2 days and I’ll be away from my parents for the first long period of time. I’m horrified but I’m more horrified of having to go to school with OCD and not knowing if I’ll be able to do it. My OCD has been especially hard this summer and it feels like it will never end. My ocd makes it really challenging for me to have confidence in basic and obvious things about myself which is really hard because it feels like the identities that are important to me are fake or not real. Each time it seems like I’ve taken a step forward, I take two steps back. The continuous ocd cycles make me question what the point of living is sometimes if it’s just gonna repeat itself (but not in a suicidal way). What keeps me going is knowing how many people I can help and inspire by just getting through each day who will be going through the things I’m going through right now, in the future. Sometimes all you need is to know that someone else did it. And one thing I’ve learned in my very short life so far is how helping others is one of the most important and fulfilling things you can do. What tends to work for my ocd is exercising as hard as I can when I feel like I’m getting to a breaking point, reading a self help book, watching a motivational/ inspirational video, getting on my knees and praying, ranting it out to someone I know and trust, and intentional distraction (doing something completely unrelated to my ocd where I have to be focused enough to the point where I’m distracted). Even with strategies, I understand the road can be a long, windy, seemingly never ending up hill battle. But remember that your current situation is not your final destination. This is not the end for you. Worst case scenario, you can still live an incredible life where you contribute positively to the world and where you serve others well, even at the level of where your OCD is right now. Nothing can stop you, you are unbreakable. At the very least, I want you to know that your post helped me to know that I’m not alone today and that there are incredible people with unbelievable strength on this journey with me. all the best ✌️

Username: FJustRightOCDFJustRightOCD

Date posted: 1y ago

"What keeps me going is knowing how many people I can help and inspire by just getting through each day who will be going through the things I’m going through right now, in the future. Sometimes all you need is to know that someone else did it. And one thing I’ve learned in my very short life so far is how helping others is one of the most important and fulfilling things you can do. " That is so powerful StrongAdult! Honestly with the wisdom you got, I'm impressed that you're only just about to start college. You have a lot of insight about your struggle but even more so to your deeper purpose, and compassionately ... and even though I don't know you, just from those 2 things I feel confident in your ability to get through college even amidst your struggles, and even if you're away from your family ... because you'll probably be a great pillar of support not just for other people but yourself. Just as I'll keep your awesome advice in mind, I hope you'll keep this observation of mine in mine if ever you have a tough time when you move away. I've been through the college experience, and one thing that helped back then with Just Right OCD a little bit was doing some of my work at the library or a cafe instead of in my room. Good luck you got this, thank you so much.

Username: Meggiemeggles0783Meggiemeggle...

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m so sorry! I struggle with so many ocds & one stuck for me is I have to do abc just the right way. Even when it comes to picking a movie when my friend & I watch them over the phone. I feel I need to pick the one movie we’re supposed to be watching. I add more stuff on when I need to break things down because I feel I can do this & handle it all! I also feel the woulda, coulda, & shoulda when a day is close to ending as if I missed an opportunity & was supposed to do something the just right way. It all drives me crazy but I take day by day. I feel alone often with my ocd but when I go to my ocd group in person & on video is a short time I don’t as alone. Sending you a virtual hug! Hope you are able to do something you enjoy & be kind to you! All ocd folks are warriors! When my obsessions, compulsions etc take over I journal. It helps a little, put meditation music on or do something that distracts the thoughts. Hope you find a support system where you don’t always have to feel so alone.

Username: FJustRightOCDFJustRightOCD

Date posted: 1y ago

This is one of the nicest comments .. ever. TYSVM I will keep coming back to it as a source of support and I wish you the best too and you are not alone. Someone so kind and supportive like you really deserves all the best.

Username: longdays1234longdays1234

Date posted: 1y ago

Hello this is the first post I have seen about just right ocd. I often try and explain to people that some of my compulsions are because of intrusive thoughts but then some are just because of a urge. Then when I’m doing then most of the time I find myself stuck and unable to move trying to find the right time to walk away. It’s got so much worse over the last few weeks but mine also effects the way I eat. Drink. Sleep. Walk in and out of door ways. Correcting touch it’s literally never ending. All day. Every minute. I also don’t know how to start trying to help myself with it. It’s not so much a intrusive thought if it doesn’t feel just right it’s more I fear the feeling it gives me when I know it didn’t feel just right and I try to walk away. I know exactly how this feels it’s slowly draining me.

Username: FJustRightOCDFJustRightOCD

Date posted: 1y ago

Hey LongDays, thank you for sharing that so vulnerably, it makes me feel so much less alone, but I'm also really sad you also "find myself stuck and unable to move trying to find the right time to walk away". Yes. This exactly. Thanks for distinguishing how the difference with this is that it's an urge more than acting on an intrusive though. Sometimes my urges come from intrusive thoughts like "what if this isn't good enough", but it's so much more of an urge that's hard to physically peel away from. Are you in ERP therapy?

Username: longdays1234longdays1234

Date posted: 1y ago

@FJustRightOCD Hello. No I’m not in any therapy as therapy in England is really hard to come across. I just always hear people saying ignore the intrusive thought…. I do have intrusive thoughts with other things but my just right ocd is more of a feeling when I try to walk away and I often find myself stuck doing compulsions which takes up so many hours of my day. Are you therapy? It’s so hard to explain isn’t it. The more I can’t peel myself away the more anxious I become then the more strong the urge becomes and I can’t finish it on a number that I don’t like. But this is how I walk through doorways. Eat. Drink. Touch things. If I bang a elbow etc it’s just never ending. I don’t even know where to start with just right ocd there isn’t much information about it anywhere.

Username: Meggiemeggles0783Meggiemeggle...

Date posted: 1y ago

Aww wow! Thanks so much for your kindness & support! That means so much! We both deserve the best! It’s such a war with the mind! Yes there is kindness & support here. I go on here when my ocd is going going often.

Username: ilohuiojh

Date posted: 5y ago

I’m confused. I don’t know how this is supposed to work. Can anyone relate to this??? I don’t have anyone who understands just what my ocd is. I barely understand it. No matter what I do and where, my thoughts hit me. I can be blinking the wrong way and I have to blink until it feels right.. same for swallowing, touching things, light switches and setting down cups. I have to sit and stand up multiple times until it feels right. Step on certain things like cracks in sidewalk as many times I feel is needed. Wash my hands multiple times. Even when texting, I can type out a whole paragraph and my mind tells me to delete it all and start again because it’s not right. When something isn’t right my mind tells me that someone I love is going to die or get hurt. And for some reason I obsess over certain days, like a day someone I love it born. I will sit there and flip a light switch with that date in my mind and a bad thought that something will happen and I can’t stop until I feel that person in my head is safe and everything is fine. In a way I feel that I am saving them and myself from something bad. Can anyone relate? And maybe share how you’re dealing with it all? Please and thank you.

Perfectionism OCD

Username: Evums

Date posted: 4y ago

Hi everyone, I’ve never shared my ocd experience online before but am 24 yo and have suffered for 10 years. It takes many forms, ranging from hocd, pocd and rocd. I feel like the rocd is starting to affect me with anyone I become romantically involved with, whether or not we are officially a couple, just as soon as I start to feel so happy and excited it comes to ruin it. The obsessive doubts about my feelings and thoughts for the other person make me forget how to even act normal anymore towards them. I feel like every thing I do and say is overthought and fake. Desperate to have a relaxed and content relationship but this is continuously happening. I find this incredibly distressing and exhausting, anyone who feels this way please let me know. I feel so alone Thank you

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Been a rough one

It feels like the ocd has gotten to a point where it's just there in the background at all times. Even if im not having some POCD related thought it's like it's just taken away a part of me I feel i can't get back. I still go through the motions and try to joke around and be silly like i would normally. But its just hard to always feel this anxiety and uncertainty in the background. Sure, i can handle it. But what is that worth when you're just handling a slow persistent torture. Everywhere i go it's like i can't connect, seeing others happy and seemingly carefree makes me feel like an alien. Every morning for 8 months the OCD pops in within the first minute of the day. Doesn't have to even be a thought around POCD, though it usually is. Its just the general thought that i have this thing that i can't seem to get rid of and its making me a lesser version of myself. And on top of it all, i can't truly know if its OCD. Since its more "Pure-O" it feels hard to relate to others and their experiences with OCD. Just such a damn mess. This has happened before with other themes but this POCD thing feels like a demon on steroids.

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