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Why do I feel like I am in the process of becoming a killer? It's really disturbing for me but whenever I go I see myself doing horrible things to the people I care about and to my pets. I'm feeling like I am not normal anymore. This never happened to me. But, I remember when I had another cat, once I put my arms around her to see if I can harm her, amd I didn't. That's what makes me feel like I am becoming a killer and I am in denial. I don't want that and I thought about suicide with pills.

ivrec

Date posted: 1y

The bottom line is always the bottom line, you did not hurt your cat. As humans we have thoughts and temptations but our actions tell us who we are. I think people with OCD are very sensitive people and notice details that others miss. Please get help if you really consider hurting yourself. Don’t ever let OCD’s lies become your truths.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

I’m dealing with this right now as well. I’m so scared I’m becoming a killer. I also get these weird urges it feels so real and so scary

anonymoussehrh

Date posted: 1y

yesss jeez.I think Harm OCD it's the worst type of all. Hey, me and you got this. Ok? We have this because we are good people and that is our worst fear. Eventually, you'll look back at it and laugh!! Just hold on. You are in control and you are not your thoughts!

C.Harvey25

Date posted: 1y

You are not becoming a killer, you are not in denial, and these thoughts you are receiving are all intrusive. The mind gets curious a lot and asks spur of the moment questions that make us curious. You are not a bad person for simply having a thought. Thoughts are not fact. That’s something I’ve been telling myself for a long time now. Same with feelings. Thoughts and feelings aren’t facts. Try using a verbal form of erp. What I do in this case if if I have an intrusive thought telling me I’m a bad person or that I’m going to hell, I tell myself, “maybe I am a bad person, maybe I’m not.” You can use that instead of letting the thought linger. And please don’t give up. I know you’re struggling, we all are, but there is always hope, and people are always willing to talk to you to help.

anonymoussehrh

Date posted: 1y

Thank you! I've been telling myself all these things but nothing seems to help. My mind is very dark right now and don't know what to do. I am afraid I'll lose my shit and actually kill someone. Indeed, I've always used to avoid horror movies or crime documentaries but sometimes I would watch them if they were popular. I was disgusted, of course and I sued to get intrusive thoughts, but it wasn't including me in doing all of those things. And what bothers me, is, what normal person would put their arms around to see if they harm the cat? I feel like my life depends on kindness, and doing that I just feel so much guilt. I'm watching all of these people with their animals and I am so jealous that they are normal..

C.Harvey25

Date posted: 1y

@cartoonlover I understand the doubts you’re having, but understand that we can’t control every thought we get. We often find ourselves having a lot of irrational thoughts that don’t make any sense. Thoughts we can’t explain. It seems to me like you had a thought randomly pop up I your head and you acted on it out of curiosity. I know you wouldn’t actually want to hurt your cat or loved ones, but you did it as a response to the thought. Our brains sometimes automatically do things without thinking. I hope this helps, and I hope you continue to strive and succeed

anonymoussehrh

Date posted: 1y

@C.Harvey25 Thank you! 🥺

C.Harvey25

Date posted: 1y

@cartoonlover You’re welcome! If you ever need anyone to talk to I’m all ears

anonymoussehrh

Date posted: 1y

@C.Harvey25 you can add my discord #lunara0966

Hashi 🩷

Date posted: 24w

Has anyone else experience this?

Ive been having rough days lately i can't stop crying and i just feel like a mess because of this. I'm posting this because i'm trying to understand whats happening,not in an obsessing way but i genuinly want to understand or i guess feel validaded like i'm not alone since i genuinly fear i'm crazy or i'm the only ones experiencing this and maybe theres something wrong with me. Ive been experiencing groinals for a while around my cats ,at first , the usual i was incredibly scared at the moment. Now i feel different,i do still feel scared but now it feels like i'm causing them. I'm my case i have the urge of doing something about it the moment i get it Now while i do feel scared and try to not be around My cats while i have them,at the same time it feels sometimes that i cause them to feel that sensation which really scares me because i can tell im enjoying it and i can't stop feeling guilty and awful about it. Ive been crying a lot over this and i really fear that this could mean something else Even at some points it felt like the idea seduces me which is also really really scary. I know this isnt like this for everyone but i wanted to know if anyone else experienced this

lu22

Date posted: 23w

I really need advice harm ocd

I know we’re not meant to ask for reassurance but I’m currently not in therapy and I need help, it feels scarily real and I feel like I’m not anxious or worried over the thoughts. I had stabbing thoughts about someone I care about and I started deliberately imagining them to test myself to see if I hate it or not but instead it felt like I knew how it feels to stab someone and like the feeling of doing that physical action and I swear it is the worst thing I have ever experienced as well I had moments where it felt like It was about to happen or I keep getting this really sick ‘happy’ feeling that I want to do that and I don’t know what that is but it feels incredibly real almost like I was getting a happy feeling or wanted to do that thing and jsut wasn’t giving into it and now I’m thinking I’m actually evil and it feels like I get a pleasurable feeling over the thought of doing that and would want to do it?? Because I ‘like’ the feeling of doing it or it would ‘feel’ good I swear I really don’t know what to do it feels incredibly real I feel like I can’t even say that I’m worried or scared because I feel like I’m lying and actually want it and have evil desires I’m really concerned, I have never done anything bad in my life, I feel like what if through experimenting and imagining the thoughts to test myself I have suddenly discovered I like it because it feels extremely real that I would ‘enjoy’ or like Doing that evil thing and it’s really concerning, i don’t understand I was fine a few days ago and suddenly I’m experiencing this? Is it possible to suddenly become evil i don’t want to be evil, but what if i like it and my desire to not be evil isn’t as strong as this ‘happy feeling’ i wish I can be normal I don’t want any of this please but I swear I feel like there is something wrong with me, I think this is the worst I’ve ever felt, like it feels like I want it and would enjoy it and it’s making me feel really worried but at the same time I don’t even know if I’m worried please help I need advice

Astjtoju13!

Date posted: 22w

Harm ocd

Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster

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