Tried the GG ocd app not really sure it's beneficial to me, can see it might be for some people but not for me and my theme of ocd (harm ocd) it just seems to be swiping thoughts into negative and positive categories. Very basic.

I’m in Scotland! Good luck in your appointment, it will be all fine, be honest as you can and don’t stress about it. I stressed about mine and it was completely fine. I’m on sertaline 200mg, I heard from the psychiatrist that SSRI medication has to be given at maximum dose for ocd, which is something I was unaware of. Are you on any medication? Thank you so much for your kindness ❤️ my boss at work knows a wee bit but she doesn’t know it’s intrusive thoughts and worries about my actions as I’m worried she will think I’m a danger to the patients. Do you ever feel like you do stuff when you specially tell yourself not to? Even minor things? I get what you’re saying about the urges as I get them too, and the feelings. The feelings confused me for a long time but then I realised you can get what I call, fake feelings. Thoughts can lead to feelings even if the feelings are true to our self. The fact that it’s around people you love is honestly textbook ocd. My harm ocd stems around my mum cat boyfriend and my patients. It’s horrible and it’s battle but you can do it! Have you tried telling family how you feel for support? I would recommend coming out of your bubble of isolation because support will help, and although family time will probably be triggering its about sitting with that anxiety and not letting it control your life ❤️❤️ xxx

Just tried it after seeing your post. Totally agree with you it’s very basic

Sorry I meant to type ** Thoughts can lead to feelings even if the feelings ARE NOT true to ourself xxx

It is isn't it ? not really sure how it would help someone like me with my harm ocd or other themes. And you have to pay for it after level 15. ? Not a great app at all

Yeah me too with my real event & guilt ocd. It was definitely more focussed on contamination

Yeah I thought that i can see how it might help people with the classic ocd everyone knows about but for our kind of ocd no, not helping at all, ? I know what I have to do. And that's erp but I am soo terrified of it.

Do you currently see a therapist or take medication? I’m just so terrified all the time of the stuff going through my head. I get a few minutes of freedom before it starts again

I'm on a long waiting list for therapy ? which makes me feel even more anxious and they keep telling me what to do to help myself but I can never seem to do it. Don't feel strong enough. I feel exactly the same ? it's living hell

I’m also on a waiting list. It’ll be a long time before I see someone as I have my assessment in 2 weeks and then it’s a 6-8 week wait ☹️ It truly is living hell, doubting everything and being scared of your own head.

I feel the exact same!

Where are you from AB? I'm from the UK and the waiting times here for therapy are absolutely awful. I'm on a year waiting list! I can't believe they expect people to cope for that long with no therapy. Yeah so true ? least we know we aren't alone though and there's people going through the same, I mean I'd never wish this on anyone because it's horrible but it does make me feel better to know that others understand it. Where are you from ELO? Sorry to hear youre going through this aswell ?

I’m from the UK as well @wheredoesitend. I had a psychiatrist appointment back in May but I don’t even know if I am on the waiting list for therapy yet as it took ages for him to even reply to my Gp About an increase in meds. I work in healthcare so my harm ocd goes crazy. Last night on nightshift I felt I didn’t check one of the meds I poured and I believe 2 of the meds that I poured out were over-poured so my guilt and worry went overboard as I only remember fixing one. Sorry that’s quite hard to follow! And then when I think I’ve done something bad I become so irritable with myself and everyone around me so I felt so grumpy towards the service users and then questioned my actions. I feel I am the only one in the world that feels the commit actions due to their thoughts. I would tell myself not to say something and I say it. I tell myself not to be rough with my beloved pet and then I feel that I am. Even in a minor way. So then I think ‘where does the line get drawn for actions etc’. It’s brutal. As to said I wouldn’t wish this upon anyone. I feel so alone 24/7 and worried about what I will do. Especially at work. But I don’t want to quit my job, I’ve just qualified. I feel I betray my boyfriend with ‘minor’ stuff as well like leaning over a co worker that I had Intrusive thoughts about. I hope you all are okay and keep your chins up. “We have ocd. Ocd doesn’t have us”. Xxx

Oh are you? Where abouts? I'm in the West Midlands, it's good that you've had your psychiatrist appointment, I have mine this month, its next week actually ? hoping to get an official diagnosis because I haven't yet but I know for sure harm ocd is what I'm suffering with. Try and chase it up if you can and find out if you have been put on a waiting list. I'm sure you will have. It's just it takes so long doesn't it ? What meds do you take? I'm so sorry to hear you went through a tough time at work last night but can I just say brave you are for still going to work! That is a really positive thing! I understand what you're saying don't worry. Have you told anyone about what you're going through? Anyone you work with maybe? I know how hard it is to tell people but maybe it might help in some way? I know what you mean about getting irritated with yourself, feeling like a bad person ? I've also felt I'm the only one in the world who suffers this but thanks to this app I realise I'm not. Im so sorry to hear what you are going through just remember you aren't alone! And yes it would be a real shame if you quit your job I ended up doing that after I'd just started because I really felt like I was gonna lash out and hit my colleagues it became so overwhelming I was convinced I'd lose control. You should be so proud of yourself for going to work and I hope you can continue to do that. I have faith that you can ❤️ and I love that saying "we have ocd, ocd doesn't have us" need to remind ourselves of this more often ❤️xxx

With me my obsessions are that I'm gonna punch some one lash out and lose control it becomes like an overwhelming urge and its always around people I love and those closest to me. I really feel like i will do it. That's what bothers me so much that it isn't just a thought it's a feeling and the anxiety that comes with it is crippling. Because of that I've isolated myself from everyone which caused severe depression been like this over 2 months now need to get myself out of it so badly ?

Sorry for the late reply! I’m in Derbyshire and my doctor advised that I self refer through ‘Insight’ ? I don’t have any experience of the service yet though.

ELO.. Wow Scotland! I've always wanted to go there actually lol. Yeah I will definitely be completely honest. I was never able to be honest about the ocd but I'm learning now that I have too, to get the help I need. Just abit worried cos the psychiatrist appointment is so early in the morning and I really struggle with mornings and feeling depressed more. Oh wow I wasn't aware of that. I've been prescribed 50mg sertraline. I was scared to take it so haven't took it yet. But I'm gonna start taking it just need to dicuss something with my doctor because I've been taking meds to help me sleep.. You're very welcome ❤️ we have to be kind to eachother on here show eachother we're not alone. Oh I'm sorry to hear that! That's the thing isn't it people without ocd don't really understand! It's good that you can still go to work though weldone for that ❤️☺️ yes I feel like that ? it drives me mad. So stressful. I couldn't get my head round that at first the fact ocd seems to pick on what you love most the people who mean the most to you it really has a go at the things you value. I have managed to tell my mom and my best friend both have been absolutely brilliant about it and tried to support me but they get a little frustrated with me isolating myself I really want to get out of the pattern of isolating myself I was just so scared I'd act on my thoughts and hurt my family ? thanks for your reply hope you're well ❤️☺️xxx❤️

AB.. It's ok hun hope you are well ☺️ thanks for replying! Nice to see so many people not too far away from me ☺️ oh that's interesting! Have you done it?