JamesMY
- Date posted
- 2y
Does Harm OCD ask you why not?
Like does it say to you 'why shouldn't you kill or harm' this person? And you feel numb and full of angst?
Liz1342Liz1342
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes I absolutely understand this!
JamesMYJamesMY
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- 2y
It's a living hell isn't it.
Liz1342Liz1342
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- 2y
@JamesMY It sure is. Then you try to convince yourself of all the reasons you shouldn’t, even though you don’t want to to begin with.
JamesMYJamesMY
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- 2y
@Liz1342 - And even having to have that debate in your head makes you feel like a lunatic. And then you question whether you love or even like the person you're obsessing over.
Dylan with a y and one LDylan with a...
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- 2y
First most i want to apologize if this is irrelevant and if I missed the point of what you were asking. I have advice/perspective id like to share but want to make sure i express that its based on person experience and may not apply to your circumstances whatsoever but that more importantly i do not want to negatively affect you by assuming and speculating ideas which may not relate to your condition and could potentially mislead you rather than help you in your journey to find greater mental peace and health. Its a valid question that it seems you initially begin with the positioning of “arguing semantics” which means posing a question or argument for the sake of identifying deeper and or alternative meanings and interpretations from it. Its an effective tool used in critical thinking and analysis and when scrutinizing logic. As habits are formed under the influence of the OCD they can become overwhelmingly intense. What starts out as a tightness in your chest from facing an oppressive figure can over time due to its insurmountability and persistence becomes so overwhelming that we pick up apathy as a shield and shut down the whole process to avoid the mental stress from being overwhelmed by feelings to intense to process with the absolute resolution that those of us with OCD tend to establish where we refuse to let go of the unresolved or dismiss fears unconquered. I could be entirely wrong as i don’t know your circumstances but if nothing else i hope this insight can help you process your own feelings and thoughts in a way that helps reduce the emotional and mental stress you’re experiencing from the confusio. Having both the emotionally charged state of being upset at someone and then having an upsetting thought, isn’t uncommon for OCD as the fear of causing harm to others causes you to seek those potentials in order to safeguard against them, in this case it seems one potential assumption is that you tested yourself psychologically and shut down in the presence of your own authority. Being trapped by and having to explain yourself to a higher authority can in some people with related traumas trigger a sensory overload and in the struggle to process everything defaults to a cathartic state to emotionally protect yourself and guard against the stress. It’s overstimulation like when deer look into headlights, but i can imagine asking a question of such moral weight of myself and feeling disturbed if I didn’t have an immediately obvious and truthful response.. so in the light of the two, shutting down from the anxiety and so experiencing that cognitive dissonance and then immediately being disturbed by what appears to be a “not-right” reaction and response, so becoming frustrated feeling such strong psycho-emotional incongruity in the face of your own moral goodness.
Dylan with a y and one LDylan with a...
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- 2y
@Dylan with a y and one L Its so difficult to type at length with the small window the app provides for writing responses. I meant to end with, it is TOTALLY an understandable response and feeling to have for us who’ve dealt with the injection of thoughts against our own will to “think” then
Dylan with a y and one LDylan with a...
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- 2y
Them.*
Fullmoon21Fullmoon21
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Mines is more like you could if you really wanted to or it would be so easy
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- 23w
OCD Is Telling Me I’m Being Harmed
I had blood work done for a test I was having a couple weeks ago. The phlebotomist hit my vein weird, my arm bled a lot, but eventually stopped. My arm is still sore several days later. The following week I had my bronchoscopy. The nurse used the same arm that was already sore to put in the IV for the meds. My arm started hurting, swelling and burning. I told her it hurt really bad but she ignored me; then I was out. It’s been a week and my arm still hurts, and my veins are tight and hard. Couple that with the white stuff all over my face, that nobody from the care team bothered to wipe off- which I didn’t know about until my husband asked me what it was, I got harm from my OCD! At first I chalked it up to the white stuff on my face was bad bedside manners. Now, I keep thinking that my doctors and everyone associated with the clinics are trying to harm me. This morning I had an incident with the fryer oven while toasting my bagel. I asked my husband about it and he says he didn’t notice anything. I was down to the last few bites of my bagel, and suddenly started feeling loopy. I spit it out and threw the rest away. After sitting awhile thinking of the doctors and phlebotomist etc… it dawned on me that it was my OCD telling me people were trying to harm me. I don’t know how to get over the fact that my arm hurts really bad and my doctor completely ignores my health concerns. I’ve been nauseous for the past two weeks or so - there is definitely something wrong! I think when they find out that you have OCD and/or Anxiety, they treat you differently, as if you’re making up the symptoms. I most certainly haven’t felt heard! My husband always says, what’s wrong now? It’s such a horrible feeling to hear him say that. Is this what you call Harm? Or is it associated with Harm? I’m not sure if this is triggering or not. I hope not.
Andi 🤓☝️
- Date posted
- 22w
Triggered from NOCD article
Guys for the past couple of hours ive been spiraling! I wad researching and came across this harm ocd article question that has been worrying me. The title was "im scared of hurting someone when I'm mad. Can i trust myself?" And I was thinking "hey that's what ive been worried about for the past several months!" I even AVOID being angry. Im scared of it bc I get a lot of thoughts and I'm hyperaware of my hands and feel them tingly! Last time i tensed so hard to stay still as possible bc I was so so nervous from my thoughts and my hand twitched which made me SPIRAL. I never want to cause harm! And i always start crying after an argument bc the thoughts are so so scary! Anyway I got afraid bc the article said "research has shown that people with ocd don't struggle with impulse control- so if you find yourself intensely worried you could do harm based on the intrusive thoughts or urges you have, it's likely something else is going on." THAT SENTENCE HAS LEFT ME WITH A TON OF ANXIETY! Its so bad, my appetite is gone! I'm scared does this mean I don't have ocd and should be seriously concerned?!
I Love God T...
- Date posted
- 22w
Harm ocd
I have all kinds of thoughts that aren’t me it feels like someone is talking to me telling me evil things about people or to do evil things 😞😞😞😞 I can’t do this anymore
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