I dont know if it's ocd

But since last year when I had a travel going completely wrong (i got COVID) I started to Always think that my travels Will go wrong Always now. The fact Is that my next travel went horribly too, ended up in the hospital twice for panic attacks. i have health ocd and magical thinking. I'm convinced someone threw a spell on me and now every time things Will go bad. Next week I have to travel again, I'm having already panic attacks and Guess what??? Today i got fever and severe cold. I don't know what to do, i'm panicking i'm convinced everything Will go bad again and that I truly have an evil spell on me. Can't stop thinking about It and It makes me mad.

Camille67

Date posted: 1y

Pls someone reply I Need to calm down

XPaulina

Date posted: 1y

Hello there, I believe how you feel and how overwhelming it must be for you. The most important here it's the fact you're brave and still travel! That's great, don't give up. I don't know your believes or if you're a religious person (and what religion). But some times I have experienced when we do something with fear and doubts, we somehow promote those things to happen or we magnify them. Some times they just happen with or without us thinking about them. I also have health concerns OCD, BUT I can't travel anymore and it's not fun. I can't hardly leave my home. Don't reach that point. Keep exposing yourself, keep being brave as you are.

Camille67

Date posted: 1y

I feel pressure because im travelling with my family and everyday they Say things like "if you do what you did last year (the panic attacks) I Will leave you there" so I feel double pressured. I feel like i'm going Crazy, two weeks ago I started to sweat cold and I thought I was dying so I did the holter check up and everythink was fine, but I'm still anxious.

XPaulina

Date posted: 1y

@Mimimi66 I understand you, you won't die because a panic attack I PROMISE YOU. It feels like that I agree. I had major depression with generalized anxiety, panic attacks and agoraphobia, when I was 19 year old, now I'm 36. I'm very familiar with that. Maybe your family says that as a bad joke. Don't take it so seriously. Try to educate them in the subject, to be more supportive and compassionate. Watch this: https://youtu.be/DfhG20pmBP0?si=tPha4tqhPATLReBq

Camille67

Date posted: 1y

@XPaulina Thank you!!

XPaulina

Date posted: 1y

@Mimimi66 You're welcome, try the Spotify Alpha waves and watch the video it's gold!

XPaulina

Date posted: 1y

I sent my answer too fast. I wanted to say also, I'm extremely worried about getting ill or my baby. In the past when I could still travel, specially the last time I travel back to my country (Mexico) from Sweden, and I stayed there a couple of months with my now husband, and my family, it got so bad with my health, the 24th of December I woke up having sore throat, as I'm very picky I checked with the flashlight of my phone, what I saw was gross and scary, I had my throat with black and white parts, mostly black (necrosis) later that day I gote extremely much pain to swallow and even drink water was so painful, very high fever and pain literally from head to toes even my hair hurt. By the evening I also got an extreme pain in my right ear, whenever I passed saliva I got so much pain, i got very very ill, at some point in the next 2 days, I could even yo to pee by myself I was so weak I couldn't even take my clothes on and off, I honestly taught I was going to die. When I finally got some tests and diagnosis, it was a mother f...k named Epstein Barr virus. It took about 6 months to recover plus 1 year more to gain weight and eat better, I left me with a very uncommon but related side effect: fibromyalgia, and also I believe it provoqued my 3 miscarriages from my very frustrated pregnancy and until I got my baby. After I got better in the next week after new year, I went to a new restaurant to celebrate with my husband, and I got the WORST food poisoning ever (so far). I lost even more weight I was just 48 kg being 1.64 cm tall, so I looked not any good. After those experiences I developed and extreme phobia to eat outside still I'm so scared. It's not real life to live like this. You're not alone in this. I would suggest you to find some Alpha Waves for stress relief at Spotify, put your headset on and just listen 🎶

bokang

Date posted: 17w

Is this OCD or just...me?

I'm really struggling to figure out where my OCD ends and where I begin. I’m scared of most things—not in a panicky way, but in a deep, cautious, worst-case-scenario kind of way. Example: I haaaaaaaaate my spectacles. I’d love to do Lasik, or even just wear contacts, but the idea terrifies me. I’ve heard about the tiniest risk of blindness or infection, and once that thought is in my head, it takes over. I picture the worst, and then I don’t act. TRIGGER Also Lasik involves cutting TRIGGER which petrifies me. I’m stuck between wanting change and being too afraid to make it. The same goes with wanting to travel but being scared I'll be trafficked or someone will plant something in my bag & I'll get arrested overseas. No amount of praying will fix it. Does anyone else feel like their OCD makes them freeze in everyday decisions? Like you can’t tell if you're just being practical or if it's the OCD gripping the steering wheel again? Maybe it's just me. Maybe it's not OCD but my personality, that's what I'm trying to figure out.

Mid-life adults with OCD

Maryam love

Date posted: 16w

Magical OCD

Hi everyone sometimes when I try to do something or do something my ocd tells me if I post a certain things or wear certain clothes that that some people in my life won't talk to me or distance themselves away from And I know it's sound crazy, but I feel like it's real what should I do I don't know how to fight it or stop I've been like this since I was 13 I went to therapy and iam taking my medicine but still those thoughts won't stop I don't know how to deal with it

ddrew

Date posted: 15w

Some advice please

I’m experiencing anticipatory anxiety related to OCD. I have an important trip in 7 weeks and travel triggers my ocd. My feelings are just a dull ache in my belly constantly, and a jittery feeling. I’m confused about the actual obsessions. I used to have harm OCD that sprung from a travel incident years ago and ever since then, travel has been very fear inducing. I get the physical symptoms then my mind starts going hard. I ruminate about whether or not the stress will cause intrusive harm thoughts which in turn causes some intrusive harm thoughts. It’s very confusing and hard. I want to be someone who enjoys traveling and experiencing new things. I want so badly to enjoy this trip. Any advice helps. Thanks.

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