Watching a video on ocd ./ and the lady was saying how someone with ocd will never act out their thoughts they are the safest people in the world ./ but as I was watching this I was thinking nor I would act on it I “want” to act on it and my groinal is going crazy at the time and am thinking wtff!!!!!
What is meaning of "want"? ... if you could decide to OCD dissapear would you do it?
@drak4 Yeah of course in a heat beat
@mentalpatient so you dont want it...
@drak4 Can you what you mean …. Cos off course I would not want to think about sexual thoughts about children and off course I would not want to act on it!!! But the feeling of I like the thoughts I want to act on them is what the problem is !! Because someone with ocd doesn’t want or like the thoughts neither do they want to act on it
@mentalpatient You also dont like them or wanna act on them - as you said you would love to be free of OCD and these feelings... you may Feel and percieve "as if you like it"... but it id Also OCD... it would not be OCD if you would cherish these felings and really enjoy them and dont wanna them go away... what you describe IS Ocd experience...i also had a feelings "as something in me want it/like it/wanna act on it... I had urges and gronail reaponses... it is ALL OCD... nowdays I recovered a lot from these... so a question is do you wanna have these experiences? If not and you have it, it is not you, it is OCD... if you would be bad person you would like to these experiences stay...
@drak4 Thank you so much for your reply ! Means so much to me
@mentalpatient Do not fear... i gone trought hell with OCD, but now I feel so great a long time...recovery is not straight line, but is possible and is a journey
@drak4 I just think my brain has turned into this person !!! My normal brain wouldn’t be okay and like these thoughts and want thoughts like this! I absolutely love children there amazing! But now my mind has turned into a predator
@mentalpatient you are not your mind...so are above it...your mind is now in fearfull state and creates all "predatory scenarios and feelings" ... you mind is now evil, it is afraid... it scares you...you with therapy can reprogram your mind.. i also had these feelings and scenarios, but now my mind knows that there is nothing to worry about, because of therapy
There are no guarantees in life. It isn't accurate to say that someone with OCD would "never" do something. It simply isn't true. It's more accurate to say that we aren't more likely to act in a certain way than anyone else is. Research shows that we are *less likely* to act than someone without OCD. Under certain circumstances, one may act differently or outside of our values. For example, I struggle with harm OCD. I don't *want* to harm anyone, nor am I more likely to act on my intrusive thoughts. However, that doesn't mean I never will harm someone. I can guarantee that if someone is coming at me, threatening my safety, I'm 100% going to harm them before they harm me. Re: groinal responses, I found this article helpful in getting a better understanding of what is happening, so this might also help you! https://www.madeofmillions.com/articles/whats-going-ocd-arousal
@ReadyForImprovement But feeling like I want to act on it … and I would act on it !!! Why would I feel this way …. I mean this is talking about harming someone innocent what the hellllll
@mentalpatient OCD is a doubt disorder, so it can make you think you "want" to act on thoughts or urges. OCD is such a jerk. You're not alone. Regardless of theme, people sometimes doubt whether they want to do things or like their intrusive thoughts. It's such an awful feeling... I totally understand. Doing ERP therapy will help. I strongly encourage doing it with a therapist initially, if possible. It does get better with treatment!
@ReadyForImprovement It’s so hard when your getting a groinal which obviously feels nice!! And then your mind is saying you do want to act on them … and your thinking well I’m getting a nice feeling so I think I do! Does this sound right or shouldn’t this be happening kind of thing be honest Please
I worry people might get the wrong idea when I share this but I must post it because I’m scared so basically this is gonna sound weird but I have always sorta been a violent kid but in a normal way if that makes sense like if someone tris over I would find the ridiculously funny but what kinda confuses me is when loved ones hurt themselves I laugh it’s not like I’m putting it on idk I just randomly laugh and i find funny please don’t think I’m a bad person because I’m really not and I’m scared abt this but that’s not the point of this story so I will get to the pint now so basically I was walking upstairs and I hit my head on the door and my mum laughed at me and I said “its not funny I hit my head” and she said something else that made me angry I can’t remember and then I started to charge at her like I was gonna hit her or something and it scared me cuz I wanted to push her or something ( not harmful just like as a back off kinda thing) which I know it’s horrible writing it out but then while I had that urge to push it her or something I also got a groinal so then OCD was like ”you were gonna s3xualy attack just then and you liked it” and now I’m to scared to go near her just in case it happens again cuz I’ve been in a spiral for days now, again please don’t tell me I’m a bad person cuz I already feel like that cuz writing it out it sounds worse then it is irl im sorry if this was triggering and please reply and tell me your thoughts on this.
Im sleeping over my boys house and im having bad thoughts to hurt him and it’s like I can see myself acting on it. I never want to hurt anyone… I hope someone can comment or give me advice as I lie in bed watching crime documentary. It messes with my OCD creates false fantasies
Guys I feel a bit bothered. I fear I liked a thought bc my sister was showing me this video about a robbery and right before she was going to show me I was thinking "no... tsk this is not what I want to see. Dont think of anything." But i had to watch bc my sister was already playing the video. I tried to not pay as much attention. I hate watching videos that have stuff related to harm bc ocd loves to latch on. I got so many thoughts. But when I saw the person pull out a weapon and the cashier jump extremely high, I felt like laughing??? But not bc of what was going on but bc "why did he jump like that? It was so high! You know what? I would've jumped liked this too. That's scary!" And then I felt angry for the cashier bc why do evil people commit such things? How the heck? But ocd says i laughed bc I felt a sense of superiority and liked seeing people scared and want to feel a distorted sense of power. Like.. no? I knew I felt like laughing bc I didn't expect him to jump so high and I wanted to point it out but decided not to bc the video is serious, and it's not a movie. But I feel kinda guilty like why tf did I feel like laughing. I didn't even smile or actually laugh irl but it's bothering me. Then my sister showed me some other video and explained a specific weapon and I kept getting thoughts like "ohhh i want that! I wanna scare people too! I want to test the thoughts to double check if i actually like them" And it gave me an image of me doing something crazy like robbing a store as well! AND IT FELT REAL! I WASNT EVEN WANTING TO THINK THIS! Im worried this means its real or that i enjoyed the thought and fantasized, but at the same time ik im not actually interested nor do I have plans but what if I WANTED to for those few seconds?! Bc why did it FEEL like I enjoyed it??? I know I wouldn't, i dont have plans to nor do i want to think about making plans and I'm genuinely not interested but WHAT IF??? Did i enjoy this thought?! It felt like I wanted to bc I didn't immediately reject it like usual and for some reason felt "happy" (i didnt smile or anything but it FELT like i was happy???) Literally right after the thought came i was thinking to myself "OMG is that true?" And couldn't focus on anything else! How do I know I didnt genuinely enjoy and dont have some weird sense of power??? It's been bothering me so much, this happened a couple hours ago and I managed to fall asleep in the middle of my compulsion of mentally reviewing how I reacted to my thoughts.
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