I have not been diagnosed but every time I get an intrusive thought such as my parents finding out about a certain thing that I don’t want them to find out about, or my loved ones health I have to count down from 6 and if clock changes time then it will happen and if it doesn’t it won’t happen. Then there’s if I predict the time right the bad thing will happen (50:50 I predict it right half the time and not) and if it lands on the bad thing will happen I keep stressing over it. Sometimes when I say these bad things will happen it does, and I don’t know how to stop it. Has anyone had experience with this kind of behavior?

To me it’s like I’m having a bet with OCD if I turn around three times before my game is done loading then this will happen etc I just say no deal and ignore it

It sounds like you have compulsions and you should see a therapist or psychiatrist for a diagnosis

I can relate! Don’t lose hope. Mine has been so bad sometimes that the simple action of locking my front door and thinking a bad thought/fear of “this” happening because “I” thought of it and “I” did this, so therefore if it does happen it was my fault. Or rather, it’s going to happen because of me. I get it. I still deal with these compulsions, and I don’t know where you are with any sort of therapy or self help or other resources, but let me share one thing. The reason you have these strong feelings is your ocd-not you. Look at it this way: your brain is sending a signal for you to have an emotional response to a situation. In this case, for you it’s a time thing. For whatever reason (wiring in the brain) our mind sometimes believes these brain messages because we are simply programmed to accept feelings as valid. People with ocd have to actively challenge your brain and accept that is can be and often is at fault sending incorrect reasons to be afraid. It sucks at first, but I had to start exposing myself to my fears and accepting that they may or may not happen and just sit with the feelings and resist the compulsions. That’s not easy BUT it will teach your brain “hey brain, I see your telling me this might happen because I did this, or that since it did happen it was my fault, but I accept those brain messages are deceptive and incorrect and I choose to actively focus my attention on “this” instead, even if these feelings of fear, doubt, panic or uncertainty stick around and bother me. It’s okay. I can choose to focus on something else.” And don’t worry if it’s hard at first-it’s completely normal. You’re challenging your own brain which isn’t easy, but extremely effective over gaining control over what you do with your attention. Eventually you will see these thoughts, urges or impulses simply for what they are. And as your mind regains ultimate control, these feelings eventually fade and start losing grip and you start retraining your brain to what is really worth your time. We have to remember: our brains are chemical and autonomous. They do not stop and think “is this legitimate or not” when it’s a false message. That’s where the power of the mind, our consciousness, can take over.