Ocd ruined everything

Trust me when I tell you that you are far from alone I totally get how you feel because I feel it myself almost every day as I'm sure most people on here do. I sometimes get really frustrated because I think there was a time when I used to go about my daily business feeling relatively happy most days and without OCD but the way I see my OCD is that the symptoms that caused it where actually always thete bubbling away and it's no good me dwelling on the past too much as it's not much use to me. I try telling myself that I am going through this right now for a reason and although I am far from being on top of it I am working towards it and I will become a better version of myself than I've ever been

I feel you. I do have magical OCD that's awful bc you can't even have some boundaries with anyone bc each time it happens your mind tells you something awful will happen to the person you like or something it ends up being so debilitating that we drop all we care about to stop having these thoughts. It is a fucking disease well underrated by many people it's a fight against hell.

I can relate.Your body physically reacts to your OCD thoughts due to the repulsive reactions that you give to those unpleasant thoughts. We human beings have these things called the adrenal glands which control the release of stress (anxiety) hormones in the body. Therefore causing that uneasy physical sensation when it judge’s thoughts as “bad” due to the distress it causes us. I feel the physical sensations of OCD sometimes that can reinforce the “I do not want these thoughts but why am I physically experiencing this” type of feeling. As for the depressing thoughts, I could say that I experience feelings of frustration, because of annoying, repetitive thoughts that do not represent me at all. Those thoughts are called ego- dystonic, that means they do not represent you as an individual. I can say that obsessive compulsive disorder has ruined lots of things for me as well in the past including disrupting my education. Getting better is possible, just don’t give up! I hope this helps Thank you for sharing

I have felt like you for many years. I no longer do. We can learn the skills to live better life. It is a destructive disorder, yes! But it is treatable. Don't give up!!

I feel you