Harm OCD. Looking for advice and support please.

Been diagnosed with ocd for about 25 years. It seems to be triggered by separation from my loved ones. For example, when I was little, I went to summer camp for the first time and started getting intrusive thoughts about harming my Mom, who I am very close too. The next summer, the same thing happened. The thoughts were very specific about different ways I would hurt her and they made me so afraid. I’ve had other themes throughout the years (contamination, fear of psychosis, etc..) but this time I am dealing with the harm ocd again. In April, I went through a major career change. Some people at my new career started talking about how I will be away from my young children a lot and I got so depressed. From there, Harm OCD developed towards my kids. But this time my intrusive thoughts are not specific I, it's just like a constant thought that I want to harm them and I don't love them. I am not experiencing joy anymore around them and I hope it's just because l'm so depressed and because my intrusive thought is centered around them and it's hard to be happy with that in my head. It just feels so real and I am so scared that this isn't OCD and I am really feeling this way and that I will or want to urt them. It's like my head is telling me that this isn't CD. 5 months ago I was the nicest and loving Father, nd now I am anxious, sad, and scared that this isn't OCD. hat I am stuck like this. I'm scared. Is there anyone that has experience with anything like this?

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

With hard work they go away, just practice your ERP assignments each day, i need to follow my own advice i miss some days doing my homework

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

All we can do is see your therapist and develop an ERP Plan. High stress moments or major life changes can cause OCD to come back. It attacks the people you care about the most

JamesMY

Date posted: 1y

I'm 48, got harm ocd at age 19 but didn't know it was OCD until years later. Major changes in life can trigger you. I'm going through hell right now too. You need to go through therapy and meds, however if you can't this is what I do. I take l theanine and magnesium I take hot showers Sometimes I take gaba Taking 150mg of melatonin during the evening doesn't make you too tired and it somehow aleves the thouhts. These aren't cures but I'm giving you ways to cope. I'm sorry you're going through this. I'm in hell with you.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

Do u get the thoughts as images

kmacsimus

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Uhm sometimes other times it’s just thoughts. Why do u ask

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@kmacsimus OCD can come as thoughts and intrusive images

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Ali Greymond is a big help she has lots of videos on how to recover

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

Before i got treatment from a therapist, i tried several supplements like insotrol or something like it was a white poweder. But honestly Bro, i dont want to be on meds, so i work with two therapists we do ERP and a Bans Book where it teaches you how not to engage in the thoughts. If you really commit to doing the work , you can recover it may take like 6-9 months. I was in recovery for like 4 years before this church promotion. Now that i have the promotion i still have the images and hopefully i can be in recovery. Reach out to Ali Greymond as well. I have a good therapist here at NOCD as well

kmacsimus

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Thank you so much dude. It’s awful. My mind is trying to convince me it’s not ocd. I hate it.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@kmacsimus That’s because the thoughts and images feel so real For me its like i know my conscience is clean but the thoughts and images make u doubt

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

Valerian Root tea helps calm the anxiety. But imagianal exposures and bans tracking is the only way out

joshuadrennen

Date posted: 21w

struggling with harm OCD

i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help

mfernandes1

Date posted: 18w

Postpartum ocd/harm ocd

Hi there! I am 4 months postpartum and struggling with harm ocd, the fear of what if I harm my child. It has manifested to the fear of what if I harm my husband, sister, nieces, parents, etc. Anyone else have this experience and how did you get through it?

overthinkerh...

Date posted: 18w

ROCD/ Harm OCD

Anyone experience this? I have had OCD for past 9 years, over the course of that time I have had multiple themes from POCD, false memory OCD, contamination OCD the list goes on. Right now I am struggling with the thought that an ex is going to harm me, my family and fiancé. I am about to get married and my fiancé makes me so happy I am in love and finally found the person that truly completes me. However, of course OCD latched onto that. My OCD convinces me that if my ex finds out I’m going to get married that he will harm me and my family. The other day I did a compulsion and looked at my blocked list which my ex and his family and friends are on, I quickly glanced at their little profile pics to make sure they were okay and that they weren’t planning on scheming to harm me and my family and my fiancé. Immediately after I did this I started to freak out, my OCD made me think I was a cheater and that I secretly want to reach out to this ex. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD from that situation because I went through a traumatic experience with this individual and this is what had lead me to believe that he will harm me. Anyone else experience similar?

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

Harm OCD. Looking for advice and support please.

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community