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Lchristopher1Lchristopher1
- Date posted
- 2y
So relatable. In fact I was just thinking today that I don't really know who I am. Today my therapist said to me "we need to be able to start separating you from your OCD because it's a part of you it's not all of you." But you know what, it sure feels like all of me because it literally consumes me. I was just diagnosed about 2 weeks ago but it's made a lot of sense that I've had this for much much longer... I'm almost MAD that all of the doctors and therapists and counselors I've seen and talked to missed this diagnosis (especially how often ive gone to these people with health ocd.) I often think...who could I have been had I had intervention years and years ago? Where would I be? It's honestly a grieving process letting go of the idea of what normal is and accepting yourself for who you are. It's exhausting for us. We are constantly hypervigilant and in fight or flight. Our brains never stop. Are you trying medications or therapy? I just started an audio book called "needing to know for sure" and it's pretty good so far, just getting into the part where you learn skills to help. On a wait list for a distress terance group and therapy 1x a week. I feel like beating this is hopeless sometimes, but I also am fighting for my life back. I named my OCD brain Karen because she's always trying to speak to the manager 🤣 and everytime I have an ocd thought I say "shut up Karen." Anyways, I'm not sure how far along you are on your journey but don't give up. Fight for your life back from your Karen. Fuck Karen. You deserve peace and to experience this life with a clear mind too! 💜
liliesinbloomliliesinbloom
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- 2y
@Lchristopher1 Thank you so much for your comment, that last part made me smile about calling your OCD brain Karen.😆 I’m not officially diagnosed, I started using this app just to not feel so alone because what I’ve been experiencing seems like OCD. I think I’m going to talk with someone on telehealth soon. I don’t know what will happen from there, I’m nervous but I want to try to get better. Maybe eventually I’ll try a therapist on NOCD if that end up being what it is. I will definitely have to listen to that audio book! Thank you again for sharing and for the encouraging words. I hope you get your life back from Karen too.❤️
Lchristopher1Lchristopher1
- Date posted
- 2y
@bloominglotus You're just getting started then and thats amazing but also can be scary! Therapy is an amazing step. I also do telehealth and I can be at home comfy in my bed with my coffee while I do the work 🤣 I think the hardest part for me with this diagnosis is realizing i cannot trust a part of myself and I have to kill off that part of me, which makes me wonder who I am, whats my new baseline? Who will I be then? But that part of me causes a constant negative view of myself and wonder what's wrong with me and doubt myself and the guilt which you described above, it's as if you feel like a burden. So it's GOTSTA GO. But there's hope for our spicy brains, we just gotta work a little harder than everyone else to create a new baseline. And don't trust your Karen because you do matter and people love you, you are not a burden and you are not alone. I feel so validated reading these posts because I finally found people who understand!
ocdsucks248ocdsucks248
- Date posted
- 2y
i feel the same exact way and posted something similar to this. it’s hard and i just have alot of self doubt in myself.
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