Some motivation plz

I am not able to get help as of now...

@Anonymous May I ask what you're struggling with?

@Someone99 Unwanted thoughts that makes me anxious and to stop it I do compulsions most are mental compulsions while in physical is I try to touch/beat myself a little to stop the flow of thoughts...

@Anonymous I know the feeling all too well. Where do the thoughts come from? Is there a subject or a theme to your most intrusive thoughts?

@Someone99 Idk I am confused now...it's changing the shape...now these thoughts are actually ruining my memories...it's keep taking me back in the day and trying to make me panic by changing the context or whatsoever...it was not like that before...it's started few fays ago and i think just now while writing it I have realized it...

@Anonymous Yep, me too. So it does begin with something that did actually happen?

@Anonymous I struggle the same way, having conversations I had in the past saying something different or better, etc. Sounds like what you described. I can give suggestions based on what I've learned in ERP if you'd like.

@Anonymous Please talk to me. You can be ok

@Someone99 Now it does start with these...before it was imaginations...maybe my brain is playing with me...or maybe...u know how it is...we always remain confused...struggling to know what it is...why it is...all those things...and yes plz I need suggestions if you can

@Anonymous I see you list religion and spirituality as your subtype. Do your intrusive thoughts stem from religion?

True that...but I am not finding that how should I start to think that could make me come out of this guilt and shame and could stop making me anxious...and yes it stems from my religion

@Anonymous Well, there's a couple things going on, it seems. First, guilt and shame is the result of something that happened. Second, feeling unforgiven, unforgivable because of what happened, third, reoccurring thoughts holding you captive. So there's some things you need to resolve along with learning to manage the thoughts.

@Anonymous For me, I couldn't find peace, grace, and forgiveness until I was able to manage the intrusive thoughts. Because when I'm in an OCD crisis I can't receive all those things, especially God's love. I can't even pray and worship, just feel completely separated and alone

@Someone99 Yes almost same...

@Someone99 That's the problem I haven't did anything for real...it's all in thoughts...and just that thoughts which are not in my control is creating this mess...ukw I don't remember my last year correctly when I feel I was in better state but why and how no matter how much I try to remember I don't get why I was better at that time and why I am in distress now

@Anonymous Can I please be a friend to you? I'll gladly walk through this with you.

@Someone99 Sure

@Anonymous Do you have time to watch a YouTube video? And do you use any messaging app?

@Someone99 Yes i watch youtube as well as messaging app but I am not comfortable in sharing my identity here

@Anonymous https://youtu.be/zJb5CfmiEZU?feature=shared Watch this 22 minute video, this guy has helped me a lot. Then, if you'd be comfortable chatting with me on telegram or discord, I'll share my id. We can continue here as well. :-)

@Anonymous You're not alone:-)

@Someone99 Thankyou

@Anonymous Let me know if you watched the video and your thoughts. 🙂

@Someone99 Yes I completed it just now...feeling better, seen, empowered...but all I need to do is to continue this and should not again go to the same path...but seriously thankyou so much you are making time from your life and helping me

@Anonymous You're welcome. I'm more than happy to. :-)

@Anonymous Just 2 months ago I was on the floor hitting myself on the head to try to stop the thoughts. So, you're not alone, I'd gladly be here for you.

@Anonymous If you use discord I'm pamike4, telegram @Mavh99. Write me there anytime you want. Or here 🙂