Finding comfort in the Bible. It helps me the most

Hi everyone. I’m new to this and I don’t know if this would be the right place to share this but my first encounter with OCD was when I had my first intrusive thought around the age of 12. The thought was “God is stupid” and I couldn’t stop crying that whole night. It was the craziest thing ever. How my mind went from normal to abnormal in just a flash was terrible yet fascinating. I’m a Christian and always wondered why God would let such a strong and intense disorder enter my mind. One of the most strengthening things that someone told me was that these thoughts were not “me”. As in, these thoughts are not my fault. I believed and ever since, I was slowly able to conquer such as crazy disorder. Other issues I had was my mom not understanding it. It feels even more rough that your parents don’t really know it because they don’t experience it. But I’m here to say that God has helped me gain control of my mind overtime and I believe he didn’t give me a disorder. He gave me a gift. I just needed to learn how to control it, that’s all. God Bless and Shalom❤️

I’ve found with my own experience of battling with ocd for the past 5+ years, is that while the anxiety caused from the intrusive thoughts may feel uncomfortable and almost as if there’s an itch you aren’t scratching, TRUST when I say that those feelings go away when you ignore the compulsion. Those feelings eventually walk home like a disappointed child that his friend wouldn’t come out to play. Then, you feel the true relief. Not the “I just did the compulsion so I’m okay for the next 5 seconds” relief. The “wow, those thoughts truly were lies and those feelings were truly falsely triggered. Life is good. I can do this.” and for my fellow Christians out there, God says clearly in the Bible to “take every thought captive” so for you guys I would say to pray every time you feel that anxiety and say “God, I give this thought to You and I trust that You will handle it.” Watch what He does :) ocd can be debilitating, but it can also be defeated. Stay strong. Every one of you reading this right now are warriors for even getting up another day and fighting this. Don’t worry though, it’ll all pay off soon enough :)

So I’ve been struggling to write this down. The truth about OCD is that it sucks. I get weird thoughts and they stick. And because I can’t confirm their weird thoughts i get stuck in a cycle of rumination. That’s my compulsion. I avoid people and situations because I think I’m a bad person. Which ultimately drove me into depression and more. The verdict is this: you can’t make a thought go away. You can accept it as a thought even if you feel doubt about accepting it and letting it be there. Fake it till you make it. I’m faking it everyday and I’ve grown so much since staring my exposure therapies. Don’t avoid your exposures. They become so easy like water. The hardest part is starting. Rumination is a choice - believe it or not. I go, wait a minute wait a minute, I don’t want to keep figuring this out. And I feel the train tracks move and my mind goes else where. This is with therapy. This is with holding on to my last string of hope. And to make this easier for all of you. I’m a mother. My ocd has made my life harder because I have a tiny human who relies on me. I had a horrible childhood with the main billion still in my life. I’ve accepted it. Accept and move on. Work out for 5 min a day. Buy a new gym outfit that makes u feel hot!! Eat something different like a good quality chocolate bar ( a piece ) enjoy it!!!! Chew it slowly. Drink some water. Listen to your heart not your OCD . We don’t need compulsions, you will get there and one day believe it. Live with ocd like you don’t care! You’ve gotten this far. Rewrite your story this year. Start again everyday. And take it day by day… Build your peace and remember, nobody has the motivation to get out of bed, it’s about building good habits and discipline. Start preparing your meals for thanksgiving. Give charity, pray to god once a day. Tell him your letting him take over. Now get up and , 1,2, ready set GO.