@yourfavraccoonvalentino If you don’t mind me asking, how old are you? I am in my 30s, but was diagnosed with ADHD a few years ago. Your story, sounds similar to mine, which is why I ask if you are medicated for ADHD.
So, when I started noticing something was majorly wrong with me, I did a ton of research. I sought out help for OCD. At that point, I was self diagnosing. However, it was confirmed. I also struggle with cleaning or really any task that involves more than the bare minimum. Sounds lazy, right? At least, that’s what I was always told and what I felt. However, it was more than that. For me, I mentally would think about each step I would have to do to get said task done. If it was cleaning, I had trouble staying on task. I would bounce from one room to the next, until I had so many different projects going out once that I was overwhelmed and stopped. It finally started to trigger my OCD and made me feel even worse.
I finally talked to my psychiatrist about it. I said, “look, I don’t know if it’s a coincidence or not. But I think I have ADHD and I would like to try medication. It is starting to really trigger my OCD and I need to do something about it.” So, I started adderal. At first, I was worried to even bring it up because I know it’s very popular for those that don’t have it, but want that extra boost or whatever. So, when I asked about it I was worried I would be immediately rejected because they thought I was trying to use it for other reasons. He also told me to take breaks because he didn’t want me to be solely dependent on it. Like, if their was a shortage and I would have to go off it for a bit, that I wouldn’t be able to function without it. So, that also worried me.
Long story short: I felt kinda normal. Seriously. I didn’t think about all the steps involved, I just did it. I didn’t hop from task to task, I was able to complete something and move onto the next. I actually googled what it was like for those who take adderal and have ADHD versus those who take it and don’t have it. I was curious if it was normal to feel normal or if it there was no difference between the two. However, for those that have ADHD and take meds, that is what you are supposed to feel…. “normal.” Looking back, there was not as much information on ADHD and ADD especially in females. It presents much differently, which is why I am one of the cases that went undiagnosed until now.
I’m all for holding off medication that may not be necessary or their are other methods to try first. However, if it starts interfering with your life and mental well-being on a significant level, I say it worth the conversation with your mom about it.
