Scared/disconnected

I know in the moment it’s so hard to see past all of this. But, i’ve experienced this looking in the mirror and feeling off too and what I can tell you is that it gets better. Somewhere along the lines of trying to survive, we end up feeling like we’ve completely lost ourselves. Try affirmations and focus less on what feeling normal is or should be. Also replace those negative connotations with positive ones. Try saying to yourself I can handle uncomfortable, I can handle fear… etc. I know this is crappy but you can and will beat this. Also I would recommend you trying CBT therapy — cognitive behavioral therapy if erp doesn’t work for you. I hope this helps in some way stay strong.

You’re not alone. Ocd as a parent is one of the hardest things. I have felt this. It made me feel like the worst mother ever. It’ll get better. Somedays I struggle and other days I’m fine. Just know you’re not alone❤️

Wow. I can relate to so so so much of this. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. If you ever want to chat I am here.

I’m a lot older now I’m in my early 60s and struggled very severely with intrusive thoughts. If I didn’t do this if they would happen if I did do it, something would happen that it clicked one day the way I grew out of a lot of it was to just not care. There’s separate thoughts that just subconsciously it wants to trigger us and just try to be grounded by sitting down in a chair with your feet firmly on the floor when that happens and feel as though you have roots growing from the bottom of your feet into the center of the Earth, where are used to hug a tree, or lay against a big tree, and that would help a lot too please don’t be discouraged. I kind of embrace myself more now that I know I am a little different and I like that about me best to you you will get through this just understand that it’s just a thought that’s all it does nothing nor does it change anything it’s just you having anxiety