Anger Response

Does anyone’s cute aggression spiral their pocd 😞 i feel like i can’t even playfully squeeze , pinch , play bite my kid without the ocd twisting it … What makes it worse is when i try to “fight” the ocd and continue on doing what im doing , it doubles down convincing me that i am now CONSCIOUSLY acting on something. Does this make sense to any parents on here? 😢

Does anyone else get super scared of feelings of adrenaline while you have intrusive thoughts? Like it feels like it’s trying to take over your body and those feelings of anger are trying to collide and dictate what ur body does? Now you feel impulsive and on edge and you feel like you are acting on your thoughts? Like I get thoughts about hurting family and I get super scared when I get feelings of anger about them and I feel that adrenaline! It’s all intrusive and I don’t like anything of it

Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry (i try to avoid even being angry if i can!) bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering? Did it just move? Why is it tingly? Why did it twitch?) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back? Is this an indication i was about to do something or will in the future? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't even know anymore bc of these twitches. Im so afraid! What I do know is I don't want to ever act out (idea is distressing not appealing) but it's so scary like why did i twitch or was i about to act out? Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent real urges or impulses and i also tend to ask ai or here if the anxiety gets so bad. Like how do I know of this is actually a serious concern and I should be very worried???