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Heartbroken
I am obsessing over him still. He is in my thoughts continually. We had a beautiful relationship online. We video calls all the time. He would take me on walks with him from work. He would call me from work video chat when he could. His love voice so pure. I really believe it is a true love. He is far away for me in distance. We can’t ever be together. It just couldn’t work. We told ourselves that it didn’t matter. That the love with out for each other was enough. He came to a point where he told me that he wanted me to find to love here. That he couldn’t be with me all the time, to be there for me he said that I needed someone to hold me and to care for me. He asked me to please find someone and be happy in my life. He said he needed my happiness. Of course my heart was shattered, I couldn’t except it. I tried to tell him I didn’t want anyone else that I just wanted him I begged and pleaded. He finally got a little harsh, and I don’t blame him because I couldn’t accept it. He kept asking me to please accept reality and find someone there close to me. I kept praying for God’s grace to help me through this. You see I truly love him. I finally said goodbye to him, but what I don’t understand is two days later he messaged me and said. Good morning sweetheart. I love you. I messaged the same back to him. I was so happy to hear from him I was just shaking. The next day he told me that he was working night shift and he said I love you sweetheart. Yeah, I asked him how he was doing and that I hope he was well. I don’t understand, but he did not respond. My husband had Alzheimer’s for the last four years. He did not know me. I got very lonely. I needed someone to love me and needed someone to give my love to. We had a beautiful relationship. My husband and I he was my everything. I love him with all my heart. He passed six weeks ago. It is hard for me to understand with loving my husband so much that I can be in love with this other gentleman so deeply but I did fall for him. I keep giving it to God but I keep taking it back, I am in so much pain, it hurts so bad. If this gentleman really wants me to find someone here to love me, I don’t understand his recent messages. I am just miserable. I just don’t know how to go on without my husband, and without this gentleman My heart aches and it hurts so bad. I want to thank everyone for listening to me. You are very kind. Only by the grace of God can I get through this. This gentleman also says that he will always love me and he will always be with me. But that he needs for me to find happiness here. If anyone out there, can you help me understand this whole thing, I would be so appreciative. Thank you from the bottom of my heart again.