I’m feeling a bit more positive this evening. I was wondering if anyone has recovered from these themes and now leads a relatively normal life? I’d love to hear a success story!
Also wondering. Im struggling today
@Amber3 Im sorry to hear that, I’ve struggled today too. This evening I feel slightly more positive.
@bdiz96 It's hard, because I'm not sure if irs ROCD anymore or if I'm just not interested? I don't want to reassurance seek, but I don't really do compulsions anymore, and I'm just feeling crappy.
@Amber3 It sucks doesn’t it, I think compulsions can be sneaky as well! I we are influenced by the media a lot in how relationships should be.
@bdiz96 *I think
@bdiz96 I think this too. Because I've felt numb for over a year and I've been fixated on this. And it sucks Because I don't get the occasional happy, sad, miss him, mad, or cry and it's just ugh. We have been together for almost 3 years now and I miss what I used to feel and being excited for Xmas and our anniversary
@Amber3 I related totally, me and my fiancé have been together for 5 years and getting engaged triggered me majorly. The thoughts came flooding in ‘do I love him enough?’ ‘Am I wasting his time?’ Have you spoken to your partner about your ocd?
@bdiz96 It feels like I'm just lying because it's easier to stay than start over, and that I don't want to hurt him. And everything I said is probably typical ocd, but I just want to Feel things from time to time. I also hate that when we are apart *I sleep at hishouse nightly* that I don't get thoughts about him unless this pops up
@bdiz96 I have not, he wouldn't understand so for me personally it's just easier to deal with it alone..
@bdiz96 My head tells me I don't love him, ND that I want to leave. I've been numb for so long, wr broke up once for a week and I felt nothing and then my head was like wait for him. Move on, etc. It's just exhausting idk what's going on.
@bdiz96 I also get kind of bothered that we don't say I love you a few times a day like we once said, but then I don't try and change it ugh.
@Amber3 Only in September did I tell my partner about my ocd and my thoughts. I thought he wouldn’t understand, I can’t say he does fully because he doesn’t have ocd but what I can say is he has been very supportive and it surprised me, I thought he’d leave. I’ve started therapy and finally opened up to someone professionally after 7 years of struggling. It is nice to know that people I care about now know that I have these thoughts.
@Amber3 Maybe try and say it more but not compulsively?
@bdiz96 I've tried, but I just don't feel "comfortable" anymore ?? And yeah he probably wouldn't be supportive. Well he would and wouldn't, he doesn't understand ocd, or anything like that at all. He would probably leave.
I think I'm just struggling but not struggling at the same time. Its weird.
I can tell you that I had two severe bouts of HOCD and POCD, anxiety at 100% for weeks at a time. Both times I pulled myself out of it and let me tell you, the light at the end of the tunnel is very bright! It helped me a lot to get educated about OCD, how it works, and how to battle it. It took me a while to get over it, probably would have been a lot faster with a therapist. And during times of stress I can tell that OCD tries to pull me back into the black hole. At the moment I have a bit of a battle with health anxiety - but I am fighting it one day at a time. You know what's funny? When you are occupied with a certain theme, you sometimes wish for another theme to come back (because right now it seems silly compared to what you are fighting with right now). Hope my message makes sense...
@TomFromHome This is good to read, I’m currently in the midst of this. I wake up anxious I go to bed anxious I ruminate when I’m reality nothing is wrong. I just don’t know how to go about it, I know they say to unconditionally accept yourself but this doesn’t feel like myself.
@TomFromHome also I understand what you mean about a new theme. I had bout with real event ocd and when I had that I wanted my old theme back lol. Now I want this theme to go.
I know everything im dealing with is OCD. I have accepted that, but I just feel down. I don’t want to live the rest of my life like this. I just want to be free from this horrible illness. Any positive stories and recovery journeys will help. What did recovery look like for you? I used to be so happy, I miss it so much. This feels like it’s taken everything from me. How do you just live your life despite how you feel? Any hope will help!
This is killing me slowly day by day, im a straight female 20 years old, i started getting hocd after a break up with an ex and coming off intense use of 🍁🍃 for a few years on and off, i think it has messed up my brain so bad… my hocd is weird because ive been with men my whole life always wanted to be with men.. i also used to always question every relationship “do i love him? Does he love me? Am I with the right person?” Anyways after my hocd triggered my tocd due to researching hocd and finding they can often be linked, I started getting tocd and it’s worse then ever because it’s not who I want to be and I’m going back to situations where my abusive ex partner called me a “man” during a fight. I’ve always been a tomboy but never had same sex attraction. Help. This is killing me. I haven’t been able to study or leave the house most days, and work! I’ve lost motivation for everything and I’m in a dark hole. I need some success stories please
I’ve been really struggling with Relationship OCD since I got married, and 3 years later, I’m afraid I’ve lost the love of my life. Between the Relationship OCD, the Religious OCD, and the Sexuality OCD, she couldn’t handle it anymore. Now that she left, the fog of doubt has faded, and I’m realizing how much I truly loved her all along. I just don’t understand how our minds can play such sabotaging tricks on us. And why? I don’t know what to do. I hope and pray we eventually get back together, but I know I need help. I want to do whatever I can to return to a place where she can feel loved by me, the way she did before ROCD took over. Is anyone here going through something similar? Has anyone overcome ROCD? Were you able to repair your relationship? I’d really appreciate any insight or advice. Thank you.
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