This keeps happening (POCD)

Just learned a character I like who's over 1000 years old is supposed to be physically around 17. Believe it or not this happens to me a lot. I crush on a character who looks and acts like an adult, is hundreds or thousands of years old — and then I randomly find out online they're supposed to look 17 or something like that and I feel disgusting. Technically some sources are saying he's physically an adult. It doesn't matter, my OCD is latching onto it regardless. Stuff like this is horrible for my OCD. and I always feel safe because they're way older than me but somehow it always gets turned around on me. I just feel kinda gross. It sucks because I was really getting into this series and learning about this character but I'm gonna have to just stop consuming it for the sake of my mental health.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

You didn't know he was 17 years old, especially if he acts and looks like an adult like you said. It can be hard to have fictional characters you like because of this and it can be confusing as well. I can think of a few characters that I don't know the official age of that people have said they like them. It's definitely not like you asked for this character to be a minor. It's the opposite. I know how annoying that can be though. I'm sorry it happened to you.

Northern_Dow...

Date posted: 2y

Thats true. His actor is in his 40s. How on earth was I supposed to know 🥲. Still. The fact that this has happened several times to me makes it feel like the universe is out to get me. Everytime I try to get into something new my OCD ruins it. Not just like this but in a lot of other ways. It blows. I used to get obsessed with movies and stuff. Now I can't get three episodes into something without OCD turning it around on me.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

@Northern_Downpour I'm really sorry about that. OCD takes the fun out of a lot of things for me too. It always seems to turn things into my fault in one way or another. It especially sucks with POCD. I really don't think this was your fault.

Northern_Dow...

Date posted: 2y

@BigGyro09 Yeah, you get it 😭 thank you. I know it could be worse but I've just lost my escapism. I hope OCD is kinder to us next year.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

@Northern_Downpour You could say that again. I hope it's easier next year and I hope I'm free of my addictions too. Its making my health OCD skyrocket. I'm glad we can help each other out whenever we can. It always helps to know that there's others that understand us

Northern_Dow...

Date posted: 2y

@BigGyro09 Yeah same 😊 it's nice knowing someone else out there understands what we're going through, even if others don't,,

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

@Northern_Downpour Definitely. This stuff can be hard to talk about, so it's good that we not only have this community but people that genuinely understand. I hope you have a good rest of your day/night!

djflorio

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Just a little clarification here if it helps, since this is labeled as POCD. Specifically, pedophilia is being attracted to pre-pubescent individuals. I think being attracted to people in their late teens, which is a post-pubescent age and when people generally start exploring sexuality, is much much much more common than people want to admit. Plus there is a huge difference between finding someone attractive, and doing something physically with them against their will or better judgement. Regardless, at the risk of providing reassurance, the fact that you're worried about this shows that you care about other people. Keep up the good work.

isharemycigs

Date posted: 23w

What do I do

when I was 15 soon to turn 16, I met this girl in a IG group chat made by our mutual friends. We started talking and eventually we started flirting and talking sexual towards each other, though eventually we stopped talking because she was being really weird. A couple months later In July of 2024 my friend found out that she was actually 13 and that she lied to me about her age. It's been 10 months since l've found out and I still feel so disgusted in myself. I had my suspicions at the time but I let them go since she said she was 16 turning 17. I was completely oblivious trusting someone I only knew online especially since i've never seen their face either. i'm struggling on what to do since i've been suffering with POCD since I was 15. Till this day I still feel weird and disgusted in myself because of that. But it feels ironic since i'm sexualizing someone that's 2 years younger than me and I waited to confirm she was around my age range to sexualize her. I feel so weird and guilty about it idk what to do

Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

Pocd?

Since I don't experience attraction towards children so I'm not a p*do. But I've seen some not really child looking character. Thought he's attractive. And scared if he's minor so googled his age. Says 11. But I didn't stopped and kept thought "no but he doesn't look 11", "he's attractive" I'm so scared. Some people says don't live in past but my another past mistakes are just.. disgusting. So lets say if one is caused because I was groomed, another one is caused because I was lacking of social skills. But I don't know if I'm still attracted to 14~16 year olds... I'm scared if I do. I think I'm an ap*ebophile and is also having pocd Lets say the thought "he doesn't look 11" is the reason why I'm not. But it's disgusting. Doesn't look 11 doesn't mean it's exceptional..

heart_random

Date posted: 9w

I'm disturbed

There is one Athlete who is a month younger than me and he looks extremely young. Earlier this year I used to like him and his personality a lot but ever since I developed pocd, I keep getting scared over it. Add to that I just searched up on Twitter if finding him attractive is pedophilia or not and there was a tweet which was telling about 19 year old girls lusting over him when he was 15 years ago. I looked at his 15 year old pic thoroughly as a compulsion and he looked young in that but also beautiful/cute like any other teenage boy with pretty genes. I freaked out over thinking that he was beautiful and felt afraid that 'Was it sexual?' Then for a moment I tried to see in replies if anyone says that it is normal for a 19 year old to think a fifteen year old boy is beautiful and not pedophilia. Then I realized that why I was trying to justify a wrong for myself and I'm just so disturbed bcz why was I trying to justify it?

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