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Hello! :) I am a Christian too (raised a Pentecostal, but currently going to a Baptist church). I too struggle with religious OCD. It’s so tough!! That’s interesting that you felt as if you want to trust Mary too. I am wondering if perhaps the desire to trust in Mary as well as God might be because you often feel as if God is angry/strict/judgemental etc., and Mary seems like she might be more warm, caring and compassionate (as many women/mothers are). For years I have struggled with the idea that God can be angry/unpredictable/judgemental etc., but I believe my OCD reinforces this idea, as well as a bad experience with my own dad. I do not TRULY believe that God is like this - and I want to believe that he is so warm, loving and safe. I’m not sure that I would encourage you to put your trust in Mary (or pray to her etc)., BUT if you have warm feelings towards Mary, and the simple desire to trust in her, that’s okay!! OCD will often tell us that is it bad to even FEEL certain feelings. I think feelings are okay! Does this make sense? :)
Instead of thinking of that experience as a theological shift, why don’t you consider it an option. You could identify with some Catholic principles as well as some Protestant (Baptist) ones. But explore it more! You don’t have to feel guilty/existentially fearful for considering different aspects of the Christian religion. God has a lot of other things to worry about- he won’t mind
That sounds like some religious OCD rhetoric! It’s not God talking- it’s your OCD
As others have said, God won’t hate you. Turning to Mary, however, is wrong. God chose everyone that He works through to do a different task. I won’t deny that Mary fulfilled an important role, but her role was not more important than anyone else doing God’s work. All of our work is equal in value when we work for the King. God says we are to have no other gods before him. That includes other people that He has chosen to do His work, like Mary. I’m not saying any of this to be judgmental of you. I’m just trying to help you clear this up❤️
There are people who are in more than one denomination. My dad calls himself a "Bapticostal Catholic" because he finds truth in baptist, Pentecostal, and Catholic traditions. God will not be mad at you for having a reverence for Mary. There is a difference between reverence and worship.
And I'm unsure what you mean about "trusting" Mary... trusting her for what? Salvation?
Hello again!! I’m so glad that this made sense to you. I’m sorry that you feel this way about God... I can relate!
It just keeps telling me “he’s gonna hate you for it because you’re technically leaving him for Mary.”
GOD =\= OCD your OCD is putting those worries in your head. god is different for everyone; i’m jewish and i see god differently than people such as catholics and christians so i really can’t say i understand. however, like Hazelnut said, it’s not god who’s speaking to you. it’s your ocd thinking god has an ability to hate people / engage in these things. to me, god chose mary for a reason. it is unlikely he would hate you for such a decision.
Yes, but reverence in that manner is a form of worship because Mary would be fulfilling a role that only God is to fulfill. The Bible tells us to trust God, but it never tells us to go to anyone who has died for help. If Mary was alive we could speak to her as a sister in Christ, but she’s not.
Omg thanks guys
Yes, you took the words out of my mouth. I just didn’t know how to express it, Mary seems not judgmental and understanding and like...I can tell her anything, but sometimes with God I fear he’ll judge my struggles or...punish me for having certain opinions about him and what he does. But with Mary I feel like I wouldn’t have to deal with that because Mary is just a Saint, she doesn’t have power like God does. And also I think it’d be better for me because she was a human before. So she’d understand my problems, even though Jesus was human he had powers, real humans don’t have powers, we don’t have angels that can help us like he did
RELIGIOUS I’m scared of God and I’m keeping a safe distance. I’m not leaving him completely I’m just talking to him from far away. If I get too close to him I’ll end up getting hurt. Just because I’m scared of him doesn’t mean I don’t love him either. I want to talk to him but ocd is saying I can’t because I’ve done too many problematic things and he’s judging me for it. So I’m avoiding praying as much as I can. This is painful. I really wish I would’ve come to find God when I was older and I wouldn’t have to question everything he did. I’d just go along with it because I would understand that I have to. Ocd really just fucks Up the idea of God. Completely. It says he’s sending me to hell anyway despite me believing he died and is coming back. It says hes sending me to hell because I’m too problematic. And it says he’s ignoring my prayers because he’s pissed with me. I want Gods attention but not that much attention because then he will see it as a chance to hurt me and call it “ a test of faith.” I even prayed to Mary and asked her to tell God what I need to tell him. Idk how praying to Mary works but I just trusted she told him. I sound so stupid but I’m lost and I just want to leave this alone until I need it. Because this isn’t healthy but I’m scared to make it healthy
Does anyone struggle with opening up to God because of their OCD? My mom is a born again Christian and I recently started to go to her church with her. I was raised Catholic, but I was never really a practicing Catholic. Recently I have been so down in life and I feel like the only way out of this is through God. My mom said to me today that I have tried different treatments for many years and none have worked, but I still haven’t given God a real chance. I just feel fake if I’m going to God because of my problems. I think I’m afraid that if I open to God and don’t get better I will spiral even worse. I think my mind definitely can go down a path of magical thinking and I don’t want to think God is the answer and will solve all of my problems because I know that’s not realistic either. I just want to get better, but feel very conflicted. I have these fears because I have suffered from magical thinking for a long time. Sometimes it’s not so present in my life and sometimes it is very. It’s hard for me to tell when I’m not doing it and sometimes I’m aware if I am or not. For example I have been obsessing over a certain number lately. It’s been driving me insane. I’m afraid that God will think I’m not good enough to be helped.
hi i’ve been struggling with religion recently. when i was younger i went to a catholic school that was very poorly run and as a result i decided to not follow a religion when i left. within the past few months dealing with my ocd made me feel like there was no hope other than turning back to religion. i have been praying more frequently and i talk to God a lot abt my ocd. however i just bought a new cross necklace and have been wearing it for the past few days. however i got the intrusive thought this morning that if i wear a cross it means i am a hardcore conservative christian. and although there’s nothing wrong with that if you are, it is most definitely not who i am. so now i don’t know if i should still wear it. bc i also feel like if i take it off God will be mad at me and i’ll go to hell. i don’t go to church or read the bible or anything my religious journey to me is just the relationship between me and God and i am extremely private about it bc it’s extremely person to me. i just don’t know if following a religion is a good thing for me to do with ocd idk if lost
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