Skyline 🕊️

Date posted: 1y

Inner monologue??

I have to ask.. I have been struggling with OCD forever and I’m pretty good about overcoming it. In fact the images aren’t scary anymore BUT.. does anyone else experience this thing where maybe the thoughts don’t come as what ifs but a “word thought” that terrify the crap out of you and then you get stuck thinking is this who I am.. i have harm ocd so I don’t want to trigger anyone with examples but I really hope this explains what I’m trying to say. Say I’m talking to someone. All of a sudden boom a word or phrase pops out that seems harmful. ***trigger warning: Like someone said I’m going to rest and the word that popped in my head was permanently I know this is dark and I’m sorry but it’s terrifying and this is the last thing I need to “beat” or “get over” in order to move forward. I’m tired of not asking people who don’t understand. Please someone??

charissepisc...

Date posted: 1y

Sounds like a typical case of intrusive thoughts. You just gotta let the word be there, and remember you are not your thoughts ❤❤ sometimes our brains force things on us and its just what the mind does, just try to not feed it energy or else it will get stronger. I hope you figure this out you can !!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤

Skyline 🕊️

Date posted: 1y

@charissepisces2021 Thank you very much . I really didn’t know what this was. 🥹❤️

Kygozilox

Date posted: 1y

All my intrusive thoughts are words or commands.. never what if

Skyline 🕊️

Date posted: 1y

@Wecandoittt I’m sorry I know how debilitating this is. I wish it was talked about more because all I kept finding was the what if part.

adeliepenguin

Date posted: 1y

Absolutely I've experienced this too. Especially when falling asleep I noticed a scary one. OCD is so variable and diverse!

Skyline 🕊️

Date posted: 1y

@adeliepenguin I literally just had another one last night that has me down in the dumps today. OCD is so difficult. Sending you love ❤️‍🩹

adeliepenguin

Date posted: 1y

@ Skyline 🕊️ I'm so sorry darling, please remember you are absolutely not alone at all!! I'd been anxious about my experience for a couple of months but recently with help of friends & seeing others' similar stories, I've become much more relaxed and feel much better. OCD likes to overdramatise small things, but remember how small it is! Just a tiny tiny thing in your big wonderful life 💞

adeliepenguin

Date posted: 1y

@ Skyline 🕊️ May I ask if you are seeing a therapist to support you? If you want someone to talk to, I'm always happy to help just let me know ☺️

Skyline 🕊️

Date posted: 1y

@adeliepenguin You’re beyond amazing and kind💗 I am here too if you ever need a pep talk!! I am seeing a cognitive behavioral therapist who specializes in OCD. She’s been amazing. I’m doing better then I was at the beginning but again just those pesky little random thoughts can really catch me off guard. I hate those commands or action intrusive thoughts. Extremely distressing. Have you found anything to curve that? If you’ve experienced them??

adeliepenguin

Date posted: 1y

@ Skyline 🕊️ That's great that you have her to support and teach you! Absolutely I've definitely experienced very similar kinds of intrusive thoughts. Would you describe them as like your inner monologue producing words / phrases that you know you are scared of / triggered by? It's almost like our OCD brain is our enemy even though it's trying to help us. It can produce the thoughts etc that it knows will scare us! Like jumpscares!! I found what helped me the most is recognising & reminding myself that soooo many other OCD sufferers experience such similar things. For example this app has really helped me to find stories of peoples similar experiences. I believe that the way to reduce the impact of these kinds of thoughts / words is to take back your courage!! (Which is basically what ERP is!) Instead of being a "slave" to OCD, we must practice ERP and tell OCD that it doesn't have the power here - we do, we are stronger & braver. 💪 Sufferers of harm OCD are usually extremely sensitive & gentle people, so it's easier for us to become frightened! But we must remember we are equally brave too. You might be interested in reading up on "highly sensitive people" that helped me understand my personality and OCD. Sorry for the long message!

adeliepenguin

Date posted: 1y

@ Skyline 🕊️ Btw my Instagram is adele.arts if you ever want to chat just send me a DM I also have WhatsApp xx

Skyline 🕊️

Date posted: 1y

@adeliepenguin Yes exactly that! It’s a little hard to explain without giving the thought up but I definitely think we’re on the same page here. The action thought or command is random and doesn’t really feel like it’s coming from me. It’s a detached which is where I feel it could be called an “inner monologue.” It’s interesting that you say we’re sensitive people because from what I’ve found everyone I have come in contact with that has ocd are sensitive emotional people. I will definitely check out that book. And no worries about the long message. I really appreciate you taking a second to respond. I’m so grateful. You don’t know how much this helps. 💕

Skyline 🕊️

Date posted: 1y

@adeliepenguin I just followed you! My name is magdalys btw thanks again for being so kind.

adeliepenguin

Date posted: 1y

@ Skyline 🕊️ Of course. I totally understand when you say it doesn't feel like it's coming from you. I think a lot of thoughts we have just come from this abyss hahaha Our subconscious fears can create scary experiences like this 😔 Yes I hope the book helps you! It clarified a lot about my personality and even childhood experiences for me. And it's a pleasure to help, we are a strong community 💕

melody_harmony

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

Hey! I go through this too. It’s definitely intrusive. Something that helps me is just letting it come and choosing not to fight it. We can get through this🫶🫶

Skyline 🕊️

Date posted: 1y

@melody_harmony It feels amazing to know I’m not alone. I’m wishing you the absolute best on your journey through this 🫶

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 39w

What you shared is classic Pure O. Are you in therapy? I've had it all my life, too, and didn't get better until I began therapy with a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy. Found my therapist through NOCD.

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts

I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 23w

Intrusive words voice and details?! Someone ?

Is the following happening to anyone else? - that a certain facial expression of a person to whom ocd is attached causes a lot of thoughts that are connected to that facial expression, and that the images in your head are very detailed, and that they have a voice, say, and that you have a feeling of some kind of crawling from the groin all over your body?

flowerpetals

Date posted: 22w

frustrating

harm ocd is the bane of my existence. people always tell me that if you have anxiety over a thought, that’s ocd. and these intrusive thoughts cause me IMMENSE anxiety. i’m constantly looking for reasons why i’m not what these thoughts tell me i am. but WHY DOES IT FEEL SO REAL?? it’s like i can’t reassure myself that this isn’t me and i don’t want to do it, but i also look for reasons why it’s not me. my brain is constantly telling me “if you don’t act on this, you’ll never feel free”. WHAT EVEN IS THAT?? and why does it feel real?? anytime i think about getting therapy, i constantly think that it’s not going to help me positively but help me realize i am this person. i just wish someone with harm ocd could get into my brain, understand me, and tell me everything will be okay. i wish someone in recovery could tell me that they’ve been where i am, felt the same feelings, thought the same thoughts, and got through it when they thought they wouldn’t. i feel like i’m drowning in it. another thing is i think about how my mom knows a surface level understanding to this form of my ocd, but if she knew it all, i’m scared she’d never look at me the same. i’m scared she’d be scared of me and think i need psychiatric help. IM TERRIFIED.

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