I don’t deserve love

This really touches my heart. From what I've been learning is OCD can very well stem from early trauma. Thought patterns are developed mostly in the first few years of life, and puberty. So trauma and neglect may very well cause OCD and also OCD amplifies out feelings of being unloved. It's like the one fuels the other and so on. You are deserving of love, joy, peace and happiness. You're in my thoughts and prayers over this.

Hi there, I’m not sure if it’s OCD or trauma you suffered in your past, but I can tell you that you not deserving love is a lie! You do deserve love regardless of anything else. Every human being deserves to be loved and treated with respect. It can be really hard to love ourselves and accept love from others, but it’s important to start moving toward that goal. I hope things get better for you.

Your father mistreating you is because there is something wrong with him, not you. I know the OCD lies but YOU are lovable. The afraid of manifesting it and making it a reality are lies that OCD are telling you. Even if you truly believe you are unworthy of love, it doesn’t mean that it will ever be true. My parents used to and still do make me feel like I’m broken for having OCD. I started to believe it for a while until I realized that they are the ones with the issue and even though annoying, I can’t help my OCD and I deserve the same love and caring that anyone else does. When you are feeling really unlovable try saying in your mind, I am lovable, I am deserving of love over and over. Fixate on the thought that you are deserving of love rather than not. It also helps me to journal and it write it down daily.