melody_harmony

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

Mental checking?

Hi everyone! I just wanted to go on here, because lately I’ve been dealing with a lot of thoughts that make me hyperaware of the loss of an intrusive thought, and I was wondering if anyone experiences the same? I deal with a lot of constant intrusive thoughts, but often, out of the blue, I get distracted for a while, and then all of sudden it’s like my mind pops out and reminds me/tells me I haven’t thought of the intrusive thought I’ve been dealing with. Is this a mental compulsion? It’s just so automatic. And now, these past few days, I’ve been dealing with even more of those pop out moments and not necessarily the intrusive thought, and that has been making me feel a little bit panicked. And now I’m so hyperaware of the pop out moments that I get even more panicked. Does anyone relate? Any tips?

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

I can relate to this. I’m not sure if it is checking or not but just try to respond to it the same way as intrusive thoughts. Accept it and keep it short.

melody_harmony

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Thank you so much. Glad someone gets it. I’ll definitely keep trying to let it stay there :)

sofia stella

Date posted: 1y

I can relate to this so much!!! I take a third view stance on it “I notice the thought is back” and just practice self compassion and give it space to just be there without reacting.

melody_harmony

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@sofia stella I’ll try to practice self compassion!! Thank youuuuuuu

Emmnala

Date posted: 1y

Yes yes yes

ap_

Date posted: 1y

Yes I experience this too! you're not alone

melody_harmony

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@ap_ Thank you so much! We’re in this together :))

ap_

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous yup, we will be fine and we will be free

Wildflower1234

Date posted: 1y

Same here. I also wonder if it’s a mental compulsion? They are so tricky to identify. When this happens to me I get so frustrated with my brain, like seriously I can’t have a moment of respite? I think what may be happening is our OCD patterns are so engrained in our brains it creates a deep neuro pathway so when our thoughts deviate from our typical intrusive thoughts, are brains are like, “woah that’s not right” and jolts us back to our typical pathway and OCD way of thinking. Not fun. In theory, we should be able to retrain our brains and make new pathways. So maybe the more time in between your mental “pop out moments” means your creating a new pathway! Don’t let your brain trick you! It’s so hard. Why is OCD so manipulative?! 😫😵‍💫

melody_harmony

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Wildflower1234 Wow! I didn’t think of it like that. Yes, for sure! I mean, lately, up to these past few days, I’d been doing much MUCH better, and the intrusive thought started to become a bit less and less relevant, which in turn, is probably why my brain pops out more!! OCD is for sure clever in that way. I’m just going to keep allowing it to run it’s course though. Thank you so much for you message. It means the world!!

bkelp213

Date posted: 1y

Oh I absolutely experience this and it’s real sneaky too sometimes. I catch myself just barely checking without realizing what I’m doing until I’ve already done it 🤦‍♀️ I mainly just try to acknowledge what it is so I get better at spotting it and maybe stopping it if I can

melody_harmony

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@bkelp213 Yes, for sure! Identifying it can be tricky. Acceptance has definitely been helping me live with it though!!

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 25w

Numb and engaging more with thoughts? Help?

I’ve been feeling a bit stressed lately because my intrusive thoughts aren’t causing as much anxiety as they used to. It almost feels like I’m becoming a little numb to them, and because of that, I’m able to engage with them a bit longer. I don’t feel the usual rush of anxiety to pull away, and in some strange way, I even find myself focusing on them for a few seconds, like I’m actively thinking about them. It’s really stressing me out because I feel like by not feeling that immediate discomfort or anxiety, I’m letting the thoughts stay longer or giving them more power. I feel like part of me almost wants them to be there, and I don’t know if that’s a bad sign? They don’t even feel intrusive. Has anyone else experienced this? I’m just worried that the lack of anxiety is the reason I’m interacting more with these thoughts that would normal scare me. I feel guilt about it later. I am currently withdrawing from medication so that may contribute to this but it’s not the first time I experience this :/

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts

I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences

Hexxi

Date posted: 20w

Intrusive thoughts 24/7

Any one else deal with this? Like from the moment they wake up to the second they fall asleep, the intrusive thoughts are there?

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