Ocd

@auggie23 Thank you I know I’m just letting it get to me. It’s like I can’t remember how I felt with it last time and how it’s the same I’m gonna try and stay off the app for a bit cause that’s only making me seek reassurance and trying to like put pieces together if that makes sense I’m just gonna sit with the uneasy and just ignore it cause I know that’s the only way

@Kat25 I think I know what you mean, like you overcame the thoughts, you have physical and mental peace but then an intrusive thought come back and you feel massive anxiety or uneasiness and it’s like starting from square one?

@Kat25 Your trying to re capture that moment in time that you had prior to feeling the way your feeling or thinking the way your thinking. Cuz in your mind you were good no issues but then Intrusive thoughts come out the bushes and sneak attacks you and it’s chaos.

@auggie23 Exactly it’s more of anxiety uneasiness and like nerves now like it’s a pit of anxiety like what if something happens etc like I was doing so good and now I’m just on edge like

@Kat25 I know I’ve gone through this before and been out of it and relapsed are a part of recovery and it’s good I can identify what I’m doing right but as ocd always does it humbles me to be like well here’s this and are you sure your dealing with it well and with everything in the news these past few weeks it just adds to it

@Kat25 If I may ask how old r u? And at what age have you had OCD or recognized a difference in your thought patterns?

@auggie23 I’m 25 and I’ve had it my whole life I belive I’ve notice it getting worse in the last 2 years last year was the worse when I developed harm ocd

@Kat25 Why do you think it got worse in the last 2 years?

@auggie23 Work being exposed to more triggers I believe stress as well change getting older lol not sure

@Kat25 For me I believe I had it or atleast noticed it more when I was about 17 or 18 years old. I was coming out of Highschool and I remember being in a toxic relationship that was super unhealthy and it triggered everything in me. I honestly thought I was being attacked mentally by demons or something just because of how sinister the thoughts can be.

@Kat25 And I prayed and prayed every single day, I got depressed I lost a bunch of weight my mental health was in the garbage like it was so damn bad I didn’t know what to do other then combat the thoughts with good ones and now I know years later those where the start of compulsions. I’m honestly so happy and thankful though that I know so much more about OCD and that so many people around the world suffer with this illness and that it is Highly treatable and you can fully recover from it. I thank God honestly for this blessing. I’m here for you too if you ever wanna talk or vent I believe holding one another accountable is important. What have you found has helped you? Are you in therapy?

@auggie23 No literally exactly my compulsion a year ago was praying over and over doing certain things to make sure it was “safe” avoiding certain places and events and ruminating and now this time around that I know that I’m not falling into a lot of my compulsion which I think is why it’s hitting so hard cause it’s like well if your not doing it do you agree with it but Ik it’s just ocd coming back cause I’m trying to disregard it. I’m not in therapy rn I’m debating it right now I just try and refocus what I’m doing trying to put myself in those income situations and just kinda reminding myself I’m ok been through this before you can’t go backwards like just keep going a lot of self reassurance

@Kat25 I think that if you are capable of going into therapy that it’s a great idea especially if it will increase your quality of life and mental health! When you are ready of course :) Ruminating is the absolute worst honestly it just makes your day so much harder and exhausting so I understand what your talking about. And especially at work when you have to focus it’s even more distressing.

@auggie23 Yes I’m looking into therapy cause even though a relapse or hiccup or moment happens only one in a while I still wanna be able to help myself out of it without feeling like this and depressed for a week day month whatever

@Kat25 It’s just discouraging cause it’s like I’ve done it myself before so it’s like I know I can do it again

@Kat25 I agree with you especially because you want to be responsible and independent in treating yourself essentially which is the ultimate goal of ERP and recovering from OCD. To be your own therapist pretty much. And honestly yes you can do it again! But asking or receiving extra help will definitely help you get over that hump of uncertainty a lot quicker and more efficiently if or when you relapse again! Like say for example you get yourself out of it in like 1 month then your solid for 6 months but then an intrusive thought or image or word or whatever pops up and your in this funk again which isn’t necessarily a bad thing because it’s part of recovery but the difference would be is that you can speak to a trained OCD therapist who could give you some solid scientific help and that way it wouldn’t be such an uphill climb 🧗‍♀️ back to a peaceful state of mind.

@auggie23 This is true like I’m trying to view this as look at this that stomach ache of uncertainty and relapse is a part of recovery which is good cause I can see how I’m not relying on compulsions I’m just having more emotions and feeling and uncertainty

@Kat25 I believe even just ignoring those feelings will help you overcome your OCD:)

@auggie23 I’m trying to thank you 😊

@Kat25 😊