I’m tired

I don't believe they're is such thing as "normal". But I know what you mean. I would always wish I was like others who didn't have to deal with ocd. Being line man...must be nice and ocd tried to take everything from me. In the beginning, I couldn't even listen to my music playlist because I was so scared of the songs triggering me. I hated it because that was my favorite thing to do when driving was listening to my music. Over time, I was able to get that back. When it came to finding things I enjoyed, I had to get "back to my roots". I had to remember what I liked doing before the ocd drove me away from it. I'm not sure what your interest are but for me, I love gaming, working out, seeing my dog, laughing with my cousins, and buying way too many shoes lol. I know it's hard but the little things matter. Whatever brings you joy? Hold on to that. It's okay to be tired. I'm a grateful believer in Jesus Christ and my favorite verse is Matthew 11:28. Jesus says, "come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest". I hold onto that verse. When my days are rough, I give it to God and pray for physical but also mental rest. I tell myself that I just need to reset and recharge. Each day is a new day, my friend. It's okay and expected to be tired. Living a life with ocd isn't easy. But it does get better. I had a moment with POCD today and I got frustrated. I was annoyed that I have to deal with this stuff. But I continued on with my day. Even went to my cousins son's birthday party and laughed with my cousins. We all are going through something and I have to stop myself from using the world "normal". Because you, me, and everyone else here with ocd are not different, as in different from whatever normal is. We are warriors, man. It takes time, but we can still enjoy life. Little things. Sometimes I look at pictures of my dog when I'm down. I lean on my support system when I need a good laugh. Or even watch a funny video. Keep your head up, my friend. One day at a time, enjoying one moment at a time. Sorry for the novel😅

Trouble, awesome response. I agree. I'm a young 61 year old and learned a lot over the years with ocd. Life is hard for everyone. Everyone has something. If we do our therapy we can improve and find good things in life. It's true what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Most "normal" people are putting on an act. Now I feel it's ok that I haven't achieved the lofty goals I had when young. It really is the simple things in life that matter not some standards that society sets. Check out Shannon Shy's books and I think he has a website. I know he has a Facebook group. He did the work and recovered from ocd and now helps others with ocd. We're all unique and have our own paths. Took me a long time to stop comparing myself to others and my former ocd counselor told me comparing is a mental compulsion. Sorry I'm so long winded, too. I agree with Trouble, I have faith in God and give things to Him when I'm having a rough day. The older I get I find its amazing the tough stuff I/we can get through. Rest awhile but then keep fighting we have no choice. It CAN get better. Many worthwhile things take work. You can do it! It really is the people who keep getting knocked down in life but keep getting up and fighting that find their contentment. Hope some of this helps. And it took me years to realize what a counselor told me a long time ago is helpful; that it makes things harder if we beat on ourselves. Take care.