Anyone else have the intrusive thought or fear that they could just snap and go crazy I feel like I’m the only one it’s been bothering me since last week and I can see I’m getting better from the relapse of my ocd but I’m just frustrated I want to go back to feeling good and carefree again
I feel you. I’ve been having a big back door spike of like every theme of mine this week. From dreams, to day to day. It’s like I’m hyper focused on every little thing and literally just a couple days ago I was chillin. I hate it. I’m always afraid I’ll get stuck in that LOOP like the first real bad ocd episode I had last summer. You’re not alone dude, I’m right there with you.
@Dj-is-living Once your feeling like there are no intrusive thoughts and your at peace do you have some uneasiness about what’s going to happen next? Like your mind is just alert and waiting for the next thought to come.
@Dj-is-living Literally same I’m petrified cause I just feel so unlike how I’ve been feeling and this is my first big relapse I just wanna get back to where I was
@auggie23 Definetly me like this morning I woke up fine and then I was like okay so how do I feel is it gone but that only brings it on
@auggie23 Pretty much!
@Kat25 Ugh same
@Kat25 Yes! It’s so strange, sometimes as soon as I wake up I’m bombarded with intrusive thoughts and I’m like shit it’s gonna be one of those days. Or sometimes I’ll wake up and there’s nothing but then my brain is waiting for that sneak attack from the intrusive thoughts it’s maddening honestly
@mojoro OCD is that ugly friend that always cock blocks the pretty friend trynna kick it with someone they like lol
And then recently I’m like is an intrusive thought like going crazy and hearing things but that’s now schizophrenic ocd coming to play
@Kat25 Dude I’ve literally been dealing with that too, like I know in my heart and mind it’s my own thoughts and inner monologue in my mind I am capable of changing the voice in my mind to any character or person and it’s so fucking weird!! The voice says “Hey” but in a whisper or giggles and now it’s mixed with my harm ocd and its fucked me up trying to figure it out lol 😂
@Kat25 And also I try so hard not to go on google to see if this is a symptom to something else but I know therapist say not to research so im stuck in this jittery funk or tightness in my chest
@auggie23 Yes or like when you feel good and then your like wait why do I feel good should I feel good but that’s the whole thing when your feeling good you gotta keep ignoring everything cause your breaking yourself out of the chain
I literally go through the exact same thing everyday, currently going through an episode at the moment, the moment I wake up the thoughts come back. Needing to calm my self down as soon as I wake up. I also have the same thought of maybe I’ll snap, but that’s not who you are and is just the OCD convincing you like it always does. The same thing happens to me when I’m happy or have not had a bad thought in a couple hours, you feel like that’s not how it’s suppose to be and that you need to think those bad things.
I’m feeling this now. I feel like there’s no other choice but for me to snap and it’s very scary.
@Catlove9 Your not gonna snap I’ve had those same feelings. Sometimes you need to just take a breather and accept that you are NOT your thoughts that intrusive thoughts are only a symptom of ocd they mean absolutely nothing about your character or who you are
@auggie23 Right it’s just so hard when feeling come in to play and you start to get more intrusive thoughts over it when your feeling okay or feel on edge like something might happen I keep telling myself it’s just my ocd it’s just a thought and feeling means nothing and when I get a thought I’m just like whatever now in my head I’m saying nope I don’t agreee or just saying moving on
@auggie23 Thanks for saying that. I try to remember that but then OCD throws a curveball and says “oh no. This is who you are and you want to be this bad person.”
@Catlove9 It will not ever be who you are, you can stay true to who you are which I’m sure is a very kind and loving person 🤗
@auggie23 Thank you! I do try to be loving and caring.
I was doing so much better with my OCD. I thought I finally figured it out. However, the last two weeks have been a nightmare. It’s like I went from 0-100 all over again. And it’s become scarier than it ever has been. Every other thought is either causing me anxiety or turning into an intrusive thought. Any headache or feeling of derealization, and I start to spiral. My thoughts are becoming more gruesome and feeling more real. The intrusive urges are so bad it feels like at any moment I could actually just snap. It feels like I am about to go crazy. Another hard aspect is when I’m getting these intrusive urges it feels like I want to do it or I don’t care if I do it. I don’t feel like myself. I feel like this disgusting monster who is just going to lose it and I want it to be over. Why is this happening when I was finally better? It makes me feel like it’s not OCD and I’m actually this person and I’m just holding my true self back. I’m sick to my stomach.
My ocd has been flaring up lately I’ve noticed some things that I don’t know if it’s ocd or something else whenever I seen someone like drugged or sick or just not “normal” I feel like or get scared that’s gonna end up being me? Does that make sense or then after a few minutes I feel like I’m them I don’t know exactly how to explain it I feel like I’m gonna start acting crazy or like I act weird or like them ? Idk exactly how to explain it and I have such a drop in my stomach thinking of it because it makes me feel insane, I haven’t had such an ocd episode so it’s getting hard again and making me feel insane specially because I don’t know how to explain this that I feel, I feel so scared rn can someone please comment on this?
Hello everyone. I often get the feeling that I will go crazy or in a state of permanent suffering. The thought is very persistent and I think is OCD repeating that disturbing thought. If anyone feels the same way. What do you do about it?
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