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- 5y ago
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- 5y ago
Oh my God, thank you all so so much. You have no idea of how much you guys help me. If it wasn't for this app, I dont know what I'd do, who I'd go to. Thanks for listening to me, for being there for me. You are amazing, and deserve much happiness in life. I'll try to keep everything in mind, and look into what you suggested. I love you all!
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- 5y ago
Thank you so much! I'll try to search for books and more info. It's just so overwhelming and tiring, ocd is torture. I wish you can overcome this too, and get out of this stronger and happier than ever.
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- 5y ago
First I want to tell you that you are not alone in this. My OCD came really bad 5 months ago and I'd suffered a lot through all of the obsessions, including HOCD. I want to tell you that you are not your thoughts. Deep in your heart, you know your truly desires. The fact that these HOCD thoughts cause you so much anxiety, means that they don't allow with who you are. If you want to get rid of the obsessive and intrusive thoughts, you must follow a technique called ERP. It's about letting your thoughts and doubts being there and experience them, along with the uncomfortable feelings. Remove the compulsive behaviours that make you feel safe, that's making OCD worse. By experiencing your fears, you will habituate to them and eventually they'll fade away on their own. Do me a favour. I'm sure you have an incredible strength inside you and you must use it. I want to recommend you a YouTube channel that is helping me with my OCD. It's called "Restored Minds", and you should watch the videos from the beginning. Have faith and hope, everything will be okay. OCD is treatable and you can overcome this! You are not alone ❤
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- 5y ago
You sound exactly like me! How long has this been bothering you for?
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- 5y ago
Oh sorry, since January. How old are you? I would suggest going to therapy before it goes on for too long and scares you even more.
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- 5y ago
I'm 16 yo. I really wanted to go to therapy, but it's very expensive for my parents, and I don't want to worry them. Some months ago I went to a therapist with whom I didn't have a good experience with and told my parents I felt better so I wouldn't need to go there anymore. I guess I'll have to wait until I have my own money to pay for it.
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- 5y ago
If therapy isn’t possible for you right now, then maybe you could do ERP by yourself for a while? Maybe you should buy some books and watch some videos online (make sure you watch/buy reliable ones) to help you get started. You’re so young and I would really suggest starting now. I was 15 when it started and I have never sought out any help ever and now I’m older and I’m far too scared. Please try everything you can earlier! Here for you ?
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- 5y ago
I don’t have this specific experience with my OCD but Ted talks have helped me a lot.! I had the hardest time understanding and putting my experiences into words, until I started watching/listening to other people talk about it. I actually sent my mom a video.
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- 19w ago
I feel so sad, alone, scared and hopeless. Until two months ago there was not even the remote possibility of being anything other than heterosexual and now the idea that I could find out that I was lesbian or bisexual terrifies me to death. Everything was born from the fact that I didn't feel sexual desire towards my ex-boyfriend and I started to be afraid that it was because I was a lesbian... how can I be a lesbian or bisexual if everything was born from this? I would like to run away from myself and my head. I would really like to go back and go back to my life before. I can't take it anymore. I just want to live my life like before
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- 16w ago
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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- 11w ago
Hi, I'm 17,about to be 18. I've been struggling with these thoughts for the past 8 months. I was wondering if someone experienced ever the same because I feel im "different". BACKGROUND: (I'm not diagnosed with Ocd but seeing a local counselor) About 9 months ago I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy S (who blackmailed, manipulated and molested me). Since then when I realized that what i did was very WRONG and so I started ruminating picking apart every single interaction and telling my boyfriend, i tried to remember every single detail because otherwise I felt like i was being a fraud and hiding things to save myself, i had many crisis about it because I had also what i think was false memory ocd. My boyfriend forgave me idk how tbh I still wonder. CURRENT STRUGGLE: Months ago I was sure I didn't wanna S in any way and i was sure even when everything happened. For the past 2 months tho I've been having thoughts like " Do I love S?" "I love S" "S is hot" "Would S find me hot?" "What if I want S?" " What if I don't love my boyfriend enough?" "What if I secretly want S?" "What if I see my boyfriend as a friend only?Do I?" And I tried testing my reaction to intimate scenarios with S, I'm scared I like it i dont really wanna love S or have any secret attraction, I wish I didn't have any of this and I want to be sure of my feelings for my boyfriend because I know I wanna be with him and I see a future with him like he brings me comfort. But a part of me keeps trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than have these thoughts. Im so scared of not being able to control my feelings, im scared I can't resist S and its giving me anxiety and making me cry. Sometimes when i think of those sexual scenarios with S or I get those thoughts my mind tells me to smile because i like it because I find it funny. It makes me doubt myself all over again. Like I'm always like I need to test if I'd feel aroused to intimate scenarios with S, lately im trying to fight this urge to test and test but my mind is like "just do it this once so you can be sure. I can never watch anything romantic or sexual or whatever because my mind would be like "you and S" or sometimes I'm just enjoying time with my bf and im like " yes we can just have a sneaky cheating thing thats ok" and it makes me want to figure it out to find an answer a solution because idk it just does like I need to find the meaning of it if it means the truth and all. Im worried im just an awful person and these thoughts just ruin my quality of life . Today i had a crisis where i ended up doinf swlf harm, I'm so scared of finding someone that's not my boyfriend desirable or sexual appealing or whatever it is, I also have bodily reactions when I try to imagine and test my reaction to scenarios. Now i keep groing everytime and I dont know why but i have this sensation and I dont want to havebit especially when its something S related. Does someone experience the same thoughts? Am I alone in this? Is this ROCD? What should i do?
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