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- 5y ago
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- 5y ago
Oh my God, thank you all so so much. You have no idea of how much you guys help me. If it wasn't for this app, I dont know what I'd do, who I'd go to. Thanks for listening to me, for being there for me. You are amazing, and deserve much happiness in life. I'll try to keep everything in mind, and look into what you suggested. I love you all!
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- 5y ago
Thank you so much! I'll try to search for books and more info. It's just so overwhelming and tiring, ocd is torture. I wish you can overcome this too, and get out of this stronger and happier than ever.
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- 5y ago
First I want to tell you that you are not alone in this. My OCD came really bad 5 months ago and I'd suffered a lot through all of the obsessions, including HOCD. I want to tell you that you are not your thoughts. Deep in your heart, you know your truly desires. The fact that these HOCD thoughts cause you so much anxiety, means that they don't allow with who you are. If you want to get rid of the obsessive and intrusive thoughts, you must follow a technique called ERP. It's about letting your thoughts and doubts being there and experience them, along with the uncomfortable feelings. Remove the compulsive behaviours that make you feel safe, that's making OCD worse. By experiencing your fears, you will habituate to them and eventually they'll fade away on their own. Do me a favour. I'm sure you have an incredible strength inside you and you must use it. I want to recommend you a YouTube channel that is helping me with my OCD. It's called "Restored Minds", and you should watch the videos from the beginning. Have faith and hope, everything will be okay. OCD is treatable and you can overcome this! You are not alone ❤
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- 5y ago
You sound exactly like me! How long has this been bothering you for?
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- 5y ago
Oh sorry, since January. How old are you? I would suggest going to therapy before it goes on for too long and scares you even more.
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- 5y ago
I'm 16 yo. I really wanted to go to therapy, but it's very expensive for my parents, and I don't want to worry them. Some months ago I went to a therapist with whom I didn't have a good experience with and told my parents I felt better so I wouldn't need to go there anymore. I guess I'll have to wait until I have my own money to pay for it.
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If therapy isn’t possible for you right now, then maybe you could do ERP by yourself for a while? Maybe you should buy some books and watch some videos online (make sure you watch/buy reliable ones) to help you get started. You’re so young and I would really suggest starting now. I was 15 when it started and I have never sought out any help ever and now I’m older and I’m far too scared. Please try everything you can earlier! Here for you ?
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- 5y ago
I don’t have this specific experience with my OCD but Ted talks have helped me a lot.! I had the hardest time understanding and putting my experiences into words, until I started watching/listening to other people talk about it. I actually sent my mom a video.
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- 14w ago
I had same Sex fantasies, sought that out in 🌽 before I knew what sexuality was, it’s related to a specific fetish and I used to talk to strangers online including men and I’m scared now what all of this means, I have HOCD, POCD, all sorts of thoughts but I don’t know if it’s my thoughts or my past which is reality. Why did I have those thoughts as a young boy? Why why why? Who am I? Do I even have OCD? What monster am I? I just want to end it all sometimes in all honesty. Not really but sure feels like it. I’m dying inside .
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I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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