- Username
- helloworld287
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Part of ocd... Is thinking it's probably not ocd. Hang in there. You've made progress with the fact that you've met with a therapist and got diagnosed.
Uh I feel like I lie to myself as well so much. But if I was actually lesbian I wouldn’t have these feelings for boys before. I know it was real, I can’t be lesbian. I get sexually aroused with men. But I’m learning to be okay if I am. And most of the time it makes me feel better because I know where my real attraction is. It’s just you ocd. Getting a therapist to say you just have hocd, will make you feel like they’re lying. Or that youre lying, and they’re saying it to make you feel better. It’s a crap feeling. I hope you recover from this painful ocd! I wish you luck!
it’s also just weird bc im feeling better when i’m not analyzing but i also feel like that’s just accepting what i fear the most
Lately I’ve been accepting it. “Maybe I am lesbian but who cares?” Then I have my panic moments when I see a girl and I say “wait I think she’s pretty, or why did I just look at her” and then I say “oh yeah cause I’m lesbian” but honestly. In my head I’m just like “no you’re not” and it honestly decreases my anxiety I know I’m not lesbian. I’m trying to accept that I could find the same sex attractive or just accept that I’m looking at them. I don’t wanna dig deeper because there is no deeper meaning. I know I only wanna be with the opposite sex. I’m happy with them. You’ll be okay, it’s just ocd.
my ocd has been really convincing lately. it’s convincing me that i’m just questioning my sexuality and that i’m bi and just don’t know it yet. i can’t help but think “what if these thoughts and feelings are real” i’m so lost i just feel like all of this has changed who i was. the worst part is that i barely have a reaction to these thoughts so it’s hard for me to tell if it’s ocd or not. how do i know if it’s ocd or i’m just questioning my sexuality??
I have a problem maybe you guys can help, Im 27 years old and NEVER doubt that about my sexuality before, i was (i think im still) girl crazy and i have nothing against gay people i have friends how are gay, i was working nights shifts like for 3 months straight and not sleeping at all, and one day i was drinking and smoking weed, having a good time and from no where this thought that i might be gay appears, and have been struggling for about 5 months from now, i now i have a crush on this girl we are even dating but some times it thoughs feels so real like im on a denial and get depressed i used to be a happy person with out doubts about my sexuality i mean im 27 years i should have seen this coming long time ago if its real right? At this point I don't know what to do i live in a country that therapy is hard to find especially this kind im taking some medication but i need help this is taking my life and im afraid that im liying to my girlfriend, what should i do ? Is this HOCD or im on a denial? ( Sorry about my English, is not my first language)
This thing gets weirder and weirder I swear. I literally woke up, right. And my mind immediately went “What if you don’t have OCD? You’d just be really bi” and I went along pretending that I didn’t know about OCD and I was just experiencing denial. Then I scrolled on twitter and went on my friend’s page and then my mind went “why don’t you like her? There’s nothing wrong with her. I thought you were supposed to have a crush on her” Here’s the worst part in this: I’m now convinced that HOCD is a huge lie that I made up and it’s homophobic for me to suffer from this theme of OCD and label my “attractions” to the same sex as “bouts of anxiety.” Therefore, I’m not only a bad person, but a liar.
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