- Date posted
- 1y
Problems with cleaning
Does anyone else avoid cleaning?? I have multiple reasons why 1. I’m scared of the germs I might come across while cleaning, having to clean a toilet for example means getting up close to it and almost touching it, only having my cleaning cloth or kitchen roll between the toilet germs and my hand, I don’t have cleaning gloves because I’d be too uncomfortable reusing them (even after washing them) but I feel guilty about using disposable ones because of the environment 2. I’m a perfectionist to the point I feel like anything I do wouldn’t be good enough, which is silly because when it comes to cleaning anything is better than nothing, but I can’t help the feeling of distress of feeling like I’m not doing enough and not knowing when to stop 3. When it comes to things like dusting I’m afraid to dust because then the dust will be in the air 4. I’m scared to accidentally poison myself with cleaning chemicals 5. I also have depression so tasks are really difficult also autism which brings a whole load of sensory issues when it comes to cleaning. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not living in filth lol, my home is probably average clean, thankfully I have a partner who does lots of things to equally help but I’ve been having thoughts like “I can’t be cosy and comfortable if there is any dust or clutter or dirt in my home” and it is making me feel like I can’t be content without cleaning and dusting every single day which is impossible to keep up with in general let alone with all the problems I’ve got with getting cleaning done. I also have some problems with clutter. I use my parent’s attic and grandparent’s storage garage to store some things (I’m very grateful that they let me do this) but I get twitchy thinking about having clutter in my life even if they are in storage and out my home. Sometimes I even feel stressed thinking about all the clutter in other peoples homes or public places or landfill 😣😣😣 My home isn’t minimalist at all, I have loads of trinkets and things I like surrounding me, but anything that I don’t feel is a good or organised part of my decor or life is difficult to manage. I know that issues with cleaning and perfectionism etc are common with OCD but I rarely see people avoid cleaning as much as they can due to it, I normally see it manifest in people by making them obsessively clean so I feel sort of alone in this