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Please help
Please pray for me to do what I want and not what OCD wants
Please pray for me to do what I want and not what OCD wants
I certainly will. My name's Mike, I'm a believer too. I'm in my 50's so I'm old enough to be your grandpa. Lol. Anyway, I know how OCD messes with us spiritually, even tells us we're not loveable and not worthy of grace, etc. I would like very much to be here for both of you, to encourage you in any way through all this. Not hidden agenda, just a genuine love and concern for others, especially young people who are struggling with this. :-)
And pray for me to be what i want to what my ocd tells what i dont want
@star1232 I will
So I am a practicing Catholic, and I've gotten into reading the Bible this year, praying the Rosary, things like that, and while I love to do that, my OCD has been seeming to take over, in ways such as like I have to read the Bible for a certain amount of time before I'm satisfied with the time read, or something along those lines, and it's starting to make the thought of praying and reading the Bible unenjoyable, which is really hurting me inside, because I used to and want to enjoy it so bad, but now this is making it really hard to, because it feels like I don't have control over my own thoughts, and little things trigger the thoughts, it's just so annoying. If there's anything anyone thinks I can do to combat this please let me know.
I dont want this anymore. I can't do this every day, 24 hours a day. I even have nightmares of it. I feel bullied by my own mind. I am convinced it's a demonic spirit, or a stronghold. I am not sure. Whatever God is speaking to me I'm not getting it. I feel sick and depleted. I am afraid of loosing my teeth or something because of grinding so hard in my sleep. I gain weight even though I'm eating right and taking steps purely from stess; I never knew a person could be so stressed. My eyes are twitching, my skin is horrible, my thoughts never stop. I have intrusive thoughts of "giving my ..... to ". I'm not going to fill in the blanks because my mind won't let me. I dont understand what God wants and what He is saying to me. Does anyone else with Religious OCD experience the same thing? I bring this to Christ daily but I'm so so desperate and alone and scared. My whole body is in pain from stress, like it's clenched. I know Christ is in control, but dear God in Heaven just answer me already. Set me free. I'm turning 22 in a week. God just set me free.
Im starting school again the 18th of August for the first time in-person. I just want be free. I am tired of living like this. I feel scared and petrified all the time. I feel like my sins are so much and so heavy. My OCD is slowly destroying me every day. I have asked God; what is this? What do you want from me? Forgive me! Release me! Help me! I don't know how to live a normal life or even a peaceful one. Help me Jesus! I renounce everything for you! I repent! This cross is so so heavy. Help me Jesus.
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