- Date posted
- 1y
Suicidal thoughts or just ocd
I struggle a lot recently with feeling down and slightly overwhelmed by these emotions. During those times I do get thoughts of what’s the point and it does feel sore. Sometimes I’ll get like a flash forward of what it would be like for my family or husband if I’d taken my life and they found out. Other times it’s like my brain showed me an object. Or because of the down ness in that moment it does feel like I’m trying to survive. The difficult thing is I can never tell if it’s ocd or thoughts I genuinely need to seek help for. It obviously distresses me. I’m currently about 6 weeks away from labour date of first baby, I’m not working and living in a different country with my husband so I don’t have family. I do get lonely and experience this more when my husband goes to work. I have a good network of friends and church so I try to schedule stuff in a lot. Though I feel like a lot of times I’m trying to “survive” my week. I experience good times and happy moments and exercise helps. But don’t know what’s going on. Does anyone have and insight/ advice.