can someone help plz

my intrusive thoughts regarding my false memory ocd are SO bad. i genuinely can’t tell what’s real or not anymore. one in particular is sticking with me and i’m not sure why. this is what it is: earlier today at work i was taking someones order. i was already getting intrusive thoughts so i was fighting compulsions (mine are sometimes physical) and was uncomfortable. the customer was trying to redeem their app points and i was ready to scan them, but it wasnt working and they said like nvm u dont have to worry about it. this is the part that my intrusive thoughts go for. i can’t remember what i said. i think i said okay and then tried to tell them their total but they gave me the money before i could finish and i said okay again? i have no idea, i literally can’t remember. when i was counting their change my intrusive thoughts were saying that i sounded rude or said something bad and just don’t remember. the customer was super nice and everything was fine but i just keep thinking about it. did i say something offensive or bad and just don’t remember?! did they hear it and pretend not to?? i can’t tell what’s real anymore. i keep forgetting things so quickly and my intrusive thoughts twist them, then when i think about what *couldve* happened my intrusive thoughts repeat horrible things and make me think I’M the one thinking it. does anyone else go through this?? am i crazy and a horrible person?? 😭😭

m1ch3ll3

Date posted: 1y

To me it seems like you was extremely distant in the conversation. Usually our brain focuses more on what’s going on inside our brain rather than the outside world so you were probably just doing the routine of scanning, etc. I don’t think you did anything weird. And even if you were rude, personally I as a costumer would start thinking I did sth wrong rather than thinking you’re a bad person or sth. And we’re all just people so even if you had been rude, there’s the chance you weren’t having a good day. Nobody would go on and think you’re a bad person. Pls don’t worry too much abt this :)

tiffanylol

Date posted: 1y

@m1ch3ll3 thank u so much, this helped a lot. :))

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 23w

Question about false memories, please help

Can it feel like you literally remember a false memory happening? And it feels like the memory has always been there and you vividly remember it happening that way? Because I don’t even know if I’m experiencing a false memory or not but god it feels so fucking real. Like I literally remember it happening. But what’s weird is the original memory was kind of different. 2 years later, the memory is not the same, but it feels like I literally remember it happening. And in this memory, I’m fucking snapping. I’m acting on my thoughts. I feel like a fucking psycho. I hope this is just OCD

scrambled

Date posted: 23w

false memory or repressed memory?

How do you know the difference :( I genuinely cannot keep living in this torment. it all started with an ‘intrusive thought’ where I had like a hazy flash of something reading an article. and I remember thinking ‘what if’ and ‘what is this’ and then that intrusive thought turned into me ‘remembering’ something else. which caused me panic. then I started trying to find evidence because it contradicted what I remembered this entire time. this was last year in like september. fast forward to march this year, it came back up- but this time stronger and with more ‘details’ and what nots. and I’ve been ruminating on it since then trying to remember and connect and It’s like I’ve added all of these details. but are they real? or is this just my OCD? I just feel like if it were real I would have never been able to keep it to myself. but also what if it was so traumatic that I blocked it out? because it all makes NO sense for me to do something like that. but it also fits what I was thinking at the time. idk

strike1207

Date posted: 18w

Can someone please help. I’m struggling.

I have had the same false memory/instrusive image of me doing something horrible to someone when I was 12 and they were younger. It is a memory based on a real event. I truly don’t know if it’s real or not but obviously, the more I think about it the more I think it’s true. This has led my mind to become slightly paranoid. I worry that if this horrible image in my head is true then one day the person I might have hurt will come and k*ll me. I’m really scared I feel like I won’t feel better as long as this “memory” is in my head. Does anyone have advice?

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