AaaAnonymous

Date posted: 1y

So ocd, is my fear true?

Does anyone ever have this feel of like dread and panic rush through your body and it makes it feel like you are realising that fear you ahve at the time is true. for me so ocd I havent even been worrying about it lately but I’m sitting at the table having dinner and all of a sudden I have a panic feeling that rushing though my body and thoughts that say this is you realising your gay. I don’t know if that makes any sense but can anyone relate? And now I can’t eat

anonymous1315

Date posted: 1y

Happens to me, I had a few good days and now that’s been happening to me or I get convinced I found “proof” that it’s actually true this time

AaaAnonymous

Date posted: 1y

@n1315 What happens for you and how does it make you feel x

anonymous1315

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Sometimes when I get super anxious/overwhelmed about all my thoughts, my mind is like “this time you’re finally accepting it for real that you’re gay” and it feels super real and convincing. But I have always let it pass, today has been really rough though because of a tik tok and it just seems like this time it’s proof for real that I’m gay. But I’m doing ERP with the thought and trying to get back to the place I know I have in the past. The last fees days I was doing fine so it sucks to be right back in the panic/believing it all.

Mike_d

Date posted: 1y

@n1315 The proof kills me, i found people attractive when i was like 11-12 and the what ifs, now it haunts me now

AaaAnonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Michael F Everyone does that at that age don’t worry! X

AaaAnonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Michael F Do you get that omg I’m gonna realise feeling to?

Mike_d

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I always worry, because i feel that’s when people “start to know” and i remember thinking people were “cute” or whatever but this is all a mess. 27 now… wasn’t bad until i was in college

AaaAnonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Michael F I’m 20 and I have a boyfriend so the guilt makes things 10x worse

AaaAnonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Michael F Feels better talking about it though x

anonymous1315

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I’m 22 with a boyfriend and it makes it so confusing & horrible

Mike_d

Date posted: 1y

@jkwrvobx Huh?

Mike_d

Date posted: 1y

@jkwrvobx I’m confused what’s your question?

Mike_d

Date posted: 1y

@jkwrvobx Oh inwas saying like “people start to know their stuff at that age”

anonymous1315

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Yes! I have soocd and rocd which is a definitely a vicious combo

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@n1315 I have the same combo :( it’s starting to feel like I actually want to date and have sex w a girl and I don’t have energy to fight it anymore

AaaAnonymous

Date posted: 1y

@n1315 Ong this is me!!!

anonymous1315

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous2120 I watched this video about why it feels so real, because we’ve thought about it so long that it starts to feel really true. But this video helped me understand how that’s still just OCD trying to doubt/convince you. Hang in there!!!! https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=w7Mz7Bq-jAE

AaaAnonymous

Date posted: 1y

@n1315 Thank you I’ll have a watch x

heal1234

Date posted: 1y

Yes!!!!! Totally relate

AaaAnonymous

Date posted: 1y

@heal1234 It’s horrible isn’t it

heal1234

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Like a dungeon sighhhh

yaya_zz

Date posted: 22w

OCD flaring up

My ocd has been flaring up lately I’ve noticed some things that I don’t know if it’s ocd or something else whenever I seen someone like drugged or sick or just not “normal” I feel like or get scared that’s gonna end up being me? Does that make sense or then after a few minutes I feel like I’m them I don’t know exactly how to explain it I feel like I’m gonna start acting crazy or like I act weird or like them ? Idk exactly how to explain it and I have such a drop in my stomach thinking of it because it makes me feel insane, I haven’t had such an ocd episode so it’s getting hard again and making me feel insane specially because I don’t know how to explain this that I feel, I feel so scared rn can someone please comment on this?

geodrimilis

Date posted: 19w

How did your so-ocd feel when it started?

For me it was a weird intrusive thought and after that I slowly started developing anxiety and I felt a weird thing like I was losing my attraction to girls. Then I woke up one day in complete panic cuz it felt like I had lost feelings for girls suddenly and I started searching online how to know if you’re gay if sexuality changes suddenly and I took some gay tests or sexuality tests online. Chat gpt was a big thing back then too. That was before therapy and before I knew what ocd is.Can anyone relate?

Dreamydream

Date posted: 12w

TOCD

2 nights ago I saw something on my phone and it has now spiraled into me scared of being trans or being gay because i don’t want to be… now i have a huge fear of what if i am gay and am attracted to woman or what if im not comfortable in my body and want to turn into a man. It’s freaking me out - my ocd always makes me question my character! Has anyone experienced this 😩

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