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- 1y
Harm OCD
Does anyone have thoughts about being afraid of jail and that if u acted on thoughts or a plan to kill someone about how u would get away? Or am I actually insane
Does anyone have thoughts about being afraid of jail and that if u acted on thoughts or a plan to kill someone about how u would get away? Or am I actually insane
This is common with harm ocd. You're not insane, you just have the worst mental condition someone can get.
@JamesMY I feel like since In my head I get these vivid images of me plotting a murder and how I’d get away with it to avoid jail and it drives me crazy cuz I don’t want ANY OF THIS to happen I want to be normal again before this I think I’m actually insane I was just making chicken Pattie’s and in my head I said imma eat these and kill my girlfriend and then I told myself no no no and it’s wild idk what to do
@Anonymous - You don't want it to happen, and you're obsessed with the theme, your brain knows this js a fear and so it keeps sending the thoughts so you can deal with it. There is no threat but your brain, and the brains of all ppl with OCD, can't accept it because we have to be 100 percent certain. And there is nothing 100 percent certain in life. Normal ppl get these thoughts and think nothing of them and move on. We can't because we don't want to think something so horrible. Idk if you ever watched the old show Seinfeld. In one episode Elaine has the phone company guy over and in her mind thinks she could kill the guy and no one would know. Then she snaps out of it and moves on. We can't do that.
@JamesMY Yeah I just want the thoughts to stop and I feel like because they are so terrible someone said ocd is only like fear of pencils and stuff like knives because u picture hurting people so u stay away from those items but mines are so much worse so I feel I’m not ocd
@Anonymous - But it is OCD. What is OCD? Intrusive thoughts that produce terror/extreme doubt and are managed with compulsions. The compulsions make it worse because they validate the fear and they validate what you think of yourself by having them. And of course you are going to doubt it's OCD because that's what OCD does. The fact is you're terrified of the thoughts, they disgust you. You can't let it go because you can't be certain, confident that you'd never do it. You need 100 percent certainty and it's impossible to feel certain.
@JamesMY I’ve never been officially diagnosed that’s why I’m concerned
@Anonymous - I've never been officially diagnosed either. But I've had this for 28 years and have read so much about it I could be a therapist. Everything you exhibit is classic harm ocd. And I have news for you. Even if diagnosed, you still may not believe it. This is OCD.
@JamesMY I’m just sick of telling myself I’m my head I want to hurt someone I’ll legit tell myself imma kill this b?!$ch and all types of stuff and I’m scared
@Anonymous @JamesMY is this part even normal I’m going crazy
@Anonymous - Yes it is normal. Go to a therapist
@JamesMY I’m waiting for Hopkins to review my questionnaire
Im sleeping over my boys house and im having bad thoughts to hurt him and it’s like I can see myself acting on it. I never want to hurt anyone… I hope someone can comment or give me advice as I lie in bed watching crime documentary. It messes with my OCD creates false fantasies
Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
Hey, I suffer from harm ocd and I feel as if it’s non stop everything I do everyday I believe I killed someone I believe it’s harm ocd and false memory but like today I went to the store and saw a older lady and my head thinks of images of me pushing them or killing then and right after that thought I feel as if I done it then the rest of the day I ruminate replaying everything. I know erp and I should just accept the thought and let it go but it’s not easy and I feel as if i really hurt or killed someone and I don’t want to go to jail for something I don’t want to do . Any tips would be appreciated I don’t know how to accept and move on when it feels so real that I did something!
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