OCD mimicking psychosis? Please reply

Hello, I have hypochondria, gad, ptsd, and panic disorder. For the past 5 months I have been in a deep episode of what I’m hoping is just hypochondria where I’ve fully convinced myself I’m psychotic/developing schizophrenia. This theme has become so debilitating I lost my job and was completely bed bound for a while. Anyway, I have the extreme fear of developing delusions and hallucinations, so I’m constantly on the look out for symptoms like that. For whatever reason I have become extremely sensitive and afraid of anything demonic or horror related, I literally used to be a horror junkie, listen to Marilyn Manson etc. I am literally an atheist, I don’t even believe in the devil or superstitious things like this, but for some reason I have started getting extremely fear inducing demonic type intrusive thoughts, like one night I had the terrifying thought “what if my wife is possessed by a demon and isn’t really my wife” this thought scared the fuck out of me and actually changed my behavior towards my wife and gave me a panic attack, the fear of that later passed, but the uneasy feeling still linger. I’ve been getting all sorts of terrible demonic type intrusive thoughts like that about everybody and random places and even objects and they cause a panic attack everytime I get them, it used to be a panic attack about struggling to fight the urge to believe these thoughts but now I feel like it’s gotten to the point where it just straight up feels like it’s happening and I’m afraid for real and not even questioning the thoughts anymore. I’ve completely stopped listening to any music that references the devil or any type of media that may have dark references, to avoid getting these types of thoughts. When I am not anxious and I take my anxiety medicine (clonazepam) I can laugh these thoughts off and confidently shrug them off as ridiculous, but other times it feels real!Why is this happening to me? Keep in mind I am a literal atheist and do not believe in superstitious things like this, why am I suddenly afraid of things like this? And better yet why do they scare me and “feel real” if I don’t believe them. I feel like I’m fighting for my sanity every single day. I literally dread the anticipation of getting these thoughts. These strange new fears about demonic shit is only solidifying my root fear that I am developing psychosis. Can anyone please help me?

one step at ...

Date posted: 2y

I’m so sorry for everything ur going thru 😢😔 it wouldn’t hurt to make an appointment with one of the ocd therapists with nocd, they are awesome, and explain what you’ve been going thru, it’s possible that this could be ocd related and they can definitely help and if it’s not ocd related they can still point you in the right direction to get support. You’re not alone, I know this is really hard, hang in there and please reach out for support as soon as you are able, you deserve it and you’re gonna make it thru this🤗💝

mrselfdestru...

Date posted: 2y

@one step at a time😊🙏💝 Thank you very much for your reply, I have a current therapist and psychiatrist who I talk to about this, they both have tried to assure me I don’t have psychosis and this is just my hypochondria/ocd but nonetheless it’s just so hard to believe sometimes and I wanted to see if anyone else with ocd has dealt with anything like this

one step at ...

Date posted: 2y

@one step at a time😊🙏💝 Also, just dawned on me, if for some reason you can’t see a nocd therapist, make sure any therapist that says they treat ocd that they need to know how to use erp therapy/ specialize in it, if not don’t waste ur time. All the nocd therapists specialize in erp therapy 👍🏻 I have ocd and erp therapy has helped me soooo much💝

one step at ...

Date posted: 2y

@mrselfdestruct1994 Just curious, does either one of them use erp therapy to help you for any ocd related issues? Talk therapy won’t help for ocd stuff. Something to definitely check with them next time you talk. If they don’t know how to help you learn and use erp therapy I would 100% recommend calling nocd and talking with them, especially if you know you have ocd. Have you been officially diagnosed with ocd? Sorry for all the questions, just want to help🤗 I have ocd, and erp therapy is what helped me see results and get my life back💝

mrselfdestru...

Date posted: 2y

@one step at a time😊🙏💝 Yes, I have been officially diagnosed with ocd. Sadly my therapist only does DBT and swears she thinks it will help, but it really isn’t

one step at ...

Date posted: 2y

@mrselfdestruct1994 Before i forget, I wanted to share this directory of ocd specialists that nocd had posted awhile back, . It’s thru the Knowocd foundation. Also a helpful resource to get connected with a therapist who specializes in ocd. https://www.ocdinfo.com/providers?utm_source=braze&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=converted_ocd_directory_102723

one step at ...

Date posted: 2y

@mrselfdestruct1994 Just want to encourage you to reach out to a therapist who can help directly address your ocd , support you and help you learn erp, the skill that will help you overcome and manage your ocd🤗💝👍🏻 it gets easier once you have the tools , support and encouragement u need. my therapist with nocd has been wonderful! 💝 reach out as soon as you can, you deserve to get the help that can get you some freedom from ocd and into recovery, you can do this, you’re not alone🤗💝

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User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Sadly, OCD can seem and feel quite similar to delusions

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