Today I overcame

Last night I was very nervous because the next day I knew I had to inevitably face a situation with an object associated with many intrusive thoughts. They were thoughts I gained from googling intrusive thoughts and I ended up having them later on from the idea being in my head. Those intrusive thoughts involved a knife. Me harming myself or others. I avoided knives in my everyday life and subconsciously knew where they were in my home. But today in culinary class I fabricated a chicken and I was reminded of the reason I joined the class. Because I love cooking and the flavors and aromas with it! I had a few intrusive thoughts but they were only ones I had had in the past from me ruminating in what could happen in the future. I walked out of that class so proud, I’m excited to conquer tomorrow too. I know I need to seek help from an ocd specialist but for the people on this app like me who are trying to conquer on their own while they wait for their appointment just know it really does lay within your head. ❤️❤️