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- spidermanpew
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Why do I have the urge to off myself when having ocd thoughts? But I dont want to die.
Why do I have the urge to off myself when having ocd thoughts? But I dont want to die.
This is my own experience, and something you should also speak with your counselor about** For me, the best place I start is to realize that the thoughts I am experiencing are actually just that, thoughts. I then give meaning to the thoughts, which leads to feeling a certain way. I ask myself: What meaning am I giving to this thought? Is it possible to separate how I feel, from the thought I am experiencing? Can I even choose a new thought, one that feels better? We can apply this to any thought, OCD thoughts, etc... This, my friend, takes practice - be patient. It's sortve like first taking a step back - then I get better at choosing what I want to think and how I want to feel. And as with anything, practice makes better. You got this.
hey there, i totally hear you and i want you to know that you're not alone in this struggle. the way ocd can twist our thoughts and make us feel trapped is really tough, and i get how scary it can be when it throws such intense thoughts at you. i've got my own tangle with pure o, and even though our obsessions might be different, that feeling of being stuck in a loop is something i can relate to. i'm here to listen and support you, okay? i wanna share something with you that my therapist pointed me to, it's a free ai tool called "unstuck" (www.AIOCDtool.com). given the intensity of what you're feeling, this could be a solid step to help you navigate those moments. it's designed to guide you through the rough patches, kinda like having an ocd therapist in your pocket. you just type in what's bugging you, and it'll walk you through the process, step-by-step, to help you get some distance from those overwhelming thoughts. i promise i'm not into pushing apps, but this one's been a real game-changer for me, and i genuinely believe it could offer you some relief too. if you've got any questions or just need to chat about it, i'm here. stay strong πͺπ
Totally relate. Remember though OCD attacks what you care about. You don't want to die so OCD is going to go against that saying "you should" and "you will". These kind of thoughts used to terrify me so bad, so much so I couldn't be in a room by myself without feeling like I was going to k*ll myself somehow. I've learned the best way to combat these intrusive thoughts/urges is to be sarcastic with them, "oh yeah OCD I should totally k*ll myself because I have a bad cold" if that makes sense. Or saying "maybe it's you who should off yourself, OCD not me" Just so you know I'm rooting for you and I know how hard it is! I just want to remind you OCD is just a big jerk with a broken record player in hand. And you are not alone β€οΈ
Also I love your username btw π
My question is can Ocd gives you feelings of the horrible inteusive thought that you have are things you want like the harm thought you have, you have a feeling of "i want to do this cause i feel like it, i will enjoy it" Yesterday i got really angry cause i did something bad,then i wanted to focus on something else but a deep feeling of "no i want to feel this pain" came that really made me scared, and i had to let myself feel that everything is bad, im alone, nobody will help, i wanted to shift my attention but the feeling of no this is an authentic feeling just pushed me back,then all of this created a thought and a feeling of i should die, nothing will be better... since then im terrified that im actually suicidal or not, cause when i want to feel better,i get this feeling of i dont want to feel good,.i want to feel bad cause everything is bad, and i feel terribble and hopeless about this. Can this be ocd? Another one,the harm thoughts, whenever i have one i have a feeling to and thoughts that says i would enjoy that. Im really asking this cause i had enough...
I canβt figure out if Iβm really suicidal or just obsessing over the thought of it. Im to scared to even do it. I don't know if this is my OCD or what but for the past week or so it's been really bothering me these thoughts that I am on edge, scared. I haven't eaten in 3 days. I have imagined every single way of doing it, and everything and it makes me SICK. It feels like an urge at this point. I start to feel like maybe I could actually do it, then I feel myself about to go into a panic attack. I already feel derealization where this world doesn't feel real and nobody seems real to me, and my family feels like strangers and I'm just really scared. I feel very scared. I don't physically feel like I'm "here." I feel like my mind is lost. I feel like I just want to be at peace and then I think Iβm seriously suicidal and the cycle just keeps repeating itself. Im sick to my stomach and terrified.
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