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@Jijikas98 It makes me feel sad for that and for several other things.

@Carlos A It's difficult because you can't "control" it like the physical compulsions. It made me question a part of myself and it sucks.

@Jijikas98 Exactly, it also happens to me that it has completely stopped me from dating and looking for a partner, it's like now I have a concrete wall, a barrier when I see girls, and I have dated girls in the past and I have enjoyed , so this makes no sense to me, but the idea of ​​not regaining that naturalness with them depresses me, when it is the only thing I want, I see such pretty girls and a feeling arises that I will not be able to function with them and i hate that

@Carlos A I feel u Carlos. It made me think i might like my friends etc etc. i am now in a place where i don't do physical compulsions. They don't affect me anymore but i am thinking if i really want this or this or this. Like if i want this i should feel happy and I don't. It's like i have 3 emotions relaxed,anxious,sad. It sucks and it started when this type arised. Do u also experience these kind of stuff?

@Jijikas98 Perhaps if you have experienced it, the problem is that I became hypersensitive to anyone, I feel that I am constantly evaluating and checking men and women, automatically, and with this thoughts of all kinds arise, hence avoidant, compulsive behaviors and anxiety and sadness for feeling further and further away from where I want to be

@Carlos A I used to do that a lot. Checking but mostly looking at people etc etc. it has gone to a point where i just think kf kissing them but it doesn't make me anxious. Sometimes the thought i am not who i thought i was makes me so distressed

@Jijikas98 Accepting uncertainty is the only way, it is painful, a lot, but at the end of the day I choose what to do with my life, not others, just wanting my mind to align with my desires

@Carlos A I know bro. But it has got to a point where i don't know who i am ans what i like ans that every has to be accompanied by a feeling. Like i do that and i must feel excited etc etc. it sucks. I did yoga today for the first time and it triggered me at the start but found it cool! I will be doing kundalini tommorow which is told that it helps a lot.

@Jijikas98 It's good to venture into those practices, I'm just as lost as you, but there's no other choice, it's frustrating, but I really prefer to wait as long as necessary, and if what I want doesn't come back?🤷‍♂️

@Carlos A Carlos, do you get treatment for you ocd? Plus, you haven't lost this so it can't come back. It's there. It has always been there. You haven't lost your desire for girls. You have it.

@Jijikas98 I haven't, I don't think I can afford it, but he has read some books about OCD and its treatment and I am currently reading another one. I hope so, it's difficult because it also happens that I'm forcing that attraction, due to the fear of not having it and I think that can be counterproductive, the only thing that keeps me firm is the desire to be with them above all. I hope you can get ahead too