My changes all the time, or I’ll get loads at once at the moment it’s death and the feeling and thought of I’m going to die soon and it’s so scary and feels real I hate it it’s giving me panic and anxiety where it feels like I’m being choked I can barely sleep I can’t eat it’s awful, anybody had this and is there any tips to get out of it?
Yeah mine switches every time it gets bad again
@Surviving Not Thriving Yep mines bad again it’s ever since my sessions ended with my therapist I think those sessions gave me confidence to build things for myself but when it gets bad every little thing petrifies me
@Dinoel Yeah I get exactly what you mean. I noticed that I seem to gravitate to this app right before everything gets bad again, and this time my main two intrusive thoughts are about not actually having ocd and my friends actually hating me lol. I completely get what you mean. Sometimes I'll have subtypes come back for the first time in months, sometimes they'll be things I've never struggled with before. You're absolutely not alone
@Surviving Not Thriving Yep when ever I start feeling bad I will go to all apps and forums to write in just to get some relief because honestly if the anxiety doesn’t calm down and I don’t get any relief it can go on for weeks and months the panic attacks it seems to be triggered since it’s a few weeks away from closed loved ones death my temp job is coming to an end and my therapy sessions have ended we only get so much on the nhs in the uk and she went way over what she should have done but I really needed the support this month to get through it feels like I’m all alone again. But yep it’s horrible, you could see it this way if you are obsessing about it it’s deffo ocd cause that’s what ocd stands for obsessing over something, your friends wouldn’t be your friends if they hated you but I know that’s probs not gunna help but we have to try change our core beliefs but how do we do this?
Hey, I am experiencing the exact same thing with death. I have the same feeling that I’m going to die soon, I am in a near constant state of panic and I can’t sleep or eat either. You’re not alone. Most things get better with time and practice, we got this. Sending you hugs. ❤️
@clarpio I’m so sorry you are going through this too especially when our bodies respond to it because it makes us feel like there is something really wrong with us, I hope you manage to get some sleep and eat, I managed to get a good sleep last night and eat, at first trying to eat was horrible but taking that first step it helps and it will give your body something to soak up and might actually help you sleep
@clarpio The anxiety is intense and I’m doing what I can to avoid that worse feeling which is probably a panic attack but the resistance of it keeps me stuck in a horrible state of near panic like your going to loose it all, yesterday I just listened to someone give techniques for dealing with anxiety and it helped it just reminded me what I was experiencing was anxiety. (Not sure if it was a compulsion, but I get stuck in these states for a long period of time if I can’t find a relief)
I went from intrusive thoughts of hurting people, thinking I did horrible things and not remembering it like running people over with my car etc, to my brain trying to convince me I that I had split personality disorder to now health anxiety. The intrusive thoughts weren’t as bad as this. I’ll get physical symptoms like my heart racing, chest pain, can’t swallow. It’s been causing panic attacks but I’m constantly scared I’m dying. If my mole looks like it changed I freak out and think I have cancer. I had to get a stethoscope to listen to my heartbeat to make sure I don’t have an aortic aneurysm to buying a Fitbit to constantly check my pulse. I went to the ER bc I thought I was dying and now I’m paying a 2 thousand dollar bill when they say my heart is fine. It’s just exhausting.
so i have ocd but this is the main theme ive been dealing with for the last few months, im obsessed with my mortality and i feel trapped by the reality of death. i dont really believe in an afterlife which makes it scarier, not that i dont wanna my brain literally just wont let me. but i have daily panic attacks thinking about death all day, its honestly the toughest thing ive ever dealt with. does anybody have any tips on how they manage this if they have ever dealt with it? not looking for reassurance, just some non compulsive ways to kind of lessen the grip of the fear.
I’ve been perturbed for a couple of months now with incessant thoughts about aging and dying. I really am not sure what to do. This feels like other OCD themes, but also really different, because this time, what I’m afraid of is sure to happen. I will either die, or age and then die. It’s been so difficult to enjoy anything lately. I just want to pull a blanket over my head and wait until death comes. Has anyone else felt this way? I feel quite alone. I am trying to enjoy life, but I just remember that it will all be gone in a flash. Nothing really seems to help me feel better. The only escape I have is in my dreams where I can fantasize about never aging or dying. Or at least being able to rewind the clock to have more time.
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