- Date posted
- 1y
I feel myself so sick and toxic
Hello everyone. I am new and have recently been diagnosed with ocd. I have a lot of pain and sadness. I always feel lonely and neglected. I had a difficult childhood which also caused me to develop CPTSD. My obsessive thoughts are mainly about my partner. I always want to know what's going on with her, where she is, what she's doing. I want her to listen to me and me first. He keeps in touch with his exes on a friendly level, but I feel my "place" is in danger even though we have discussed it in vain. I keep thinking about her and the possibility of a rekindling with her ex. That she talks to other people more than me. Too independent and I feel my place is in danger again. I guess I'm not good enough, not supportive enough. I often think I'm not loved and I'm a reserve. We have talked about this many times, yet I keep having these things going on in my head. I have severe anxiety and I keep losing weight. I have suicidal thoughts every day. I don't know what to do because I don't want to be like this. I feel sick and toxic.