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What’s up
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@Sp1999 I was doing ok the last couple days and last night, I was at my sisters for a girls night, there was all my sisters, my mum and a few of their friends and they was talking about how people are gay, if they chose to or they change or they r born like it. Obviously it triggered me, ans my mum was like if any of my kids were to be that would be fine etc. and now I’m triggered ans my brain has been ruminating ever since that conversation when before that convo I was actually doing okay.
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@Anonymous But what were You ruminating about? Like, what's your worry about that conversation? What does that conversation has to do with you, your life and your choices? It's a taboo theme, it doesn't involve You, also, You can tell me what you are feeling, because my family also talks about that, My family in the other hand don't talk goog about them, i just worry about "i'm not homophobic and i don't want to be homophobic, neither i'm gay, and before OCD ive never thought bad about them community, also i used to read a Lot of gay mangas and anime and never wanted to be gay, i just enjoyed it while having my boyfriend, never hd a problem with they community, not that i thought about them everyday.. for me the answer to the question of what i thought about gay people was : "it's their choice" just that.. i hate this you know but, yes, tell me what you are feeling about that
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@Anonymous How to know if false attraction is false and not our true desire
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@Anonymous Now when i read that my mind tells me that i am doing that and that im in denial
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@Anonymous Like it creates a fake narrative that I enjoy these thoughts when im pretty sure I don’t and i don’t like them but like im so scared like how do i know if its negativ feelings
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@Anonymous @Sp1999 I was doing ok the last couple days and last night, I was at my sisters for a girls night, there was all my sisters, my mum and a few of their friends and they was talking about how people are gay, if they chose to or they change or they r born like it. Obviously it triggered me, ans my mum was like if any of my kids were to be that would be fine etc. and now I’m triggered ans my brain has been ruminating ever since that conversation when before that convo I was actually doing okay.
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@Anonymous Me too
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@Anonymous I’m triggered by this bc that’s how it feels for me
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@Sp1999 Sorry I didn’t mean to trigger you, how r u feeling about this theme?
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@Anonymous It’s okay I’m not mad about it, I can’t help it. It’s all part of ocd. I’m just eh you know ?
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@Sp1999 I totally get that, how ling ahve you had this theme?
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@Anonymous Oof honestly since 2020 I believe
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@Sp1999 Mine first started in 2018 or 2019 I think and went away after a year or two and it now back down e July
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@Anonymous Honestly I have no clue if it’s ocd or not but at this point I’m gonna just let life take its course
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Struggling with TOCD has probably been the hardest theme I’ve had to deal with so far For reference. I’m a gay male 20yr old Before this theme I was so open with my gender expression, love drag and used to do it for a time. A lot of my friends are trans women and my whole life is queer When this theme hit. It’s like I completely lost who I was. Questioning everything I enjoyed, not participating in anything because it triggered me so heavily. I went through a whole gender journey awhile back and the trans path never spoke to me when I looked into it. I love my physique and my face but now when I look into the mirror i feel like a shell of who I was. I can’t find any sort of pure enjoyment without the accompanying “what if” or “you’re this” intrusive thought I still enjoy how I look. I’ve not looked in the mirror and felt like anything is missing from me or needs to be taken away I just feel like a spectator in my life while this disease tells me I’m not who I know myself to be I affirm myself every day I know who I am and it may change in the future but that’s not important. It’s highly unlikely it will but it may! Giving into the uncertainty has been so hard but it’s worth it! My ocd has really picked up since getting into my first serious relationship I care about my boyfriend with my whole heart but over the course of our relationship my themes have included Health Relationship Irreality Harm I just want to be who I was again before this current theme it feels unbearable to live like this BUT! I’m seeking appropriate treatment and not giving into a majority of compulsions I just wanted to write this to see if anyone can relate and if they do. Know that you will overcome this! I know I will and you will too
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Hi all, I deal with HOCD and been seeing a therapist for about 3.5 months. It has definitely got better but still affects me very much. Was wondering there is anyone out there who has dealt with HOCD as well and has recovered. I would love to message or even chat just see how your experience was and hear what was beneficial to you.
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I have experienced every theme that can be added to post but I’m currently experiencing those. So I am on the spectrum and I happen to have a high sensory profile and it definitely gives the ocd more to latch unto. I would see a pretty female with makeup done and it eatssss and I would notice the facial symmetry + how her features compliment each other and my ocd would be like why did you notice she is pretty, BECAUSE I HAVE EYES😭! I can’t be the only neurodivergent person that notices details and how attractive people are intensely? I do not even care about orientation but I know for sure if I was into women, it won’t just start plaguing me one evening Im my head shouting “you are gay” like man Im a female at least say you are a lesbian 😭😂😂😂😂. How can I genuinely have no interest and get outrightly repulsed by females sexually and romantically. It feels like I am being forced to be something im not. I tried accepting i am lesbian but I experienced more anxiety and could not sleep till I accepted i am still straight and it is ocd playing with me(ocd leave me alone, I don’t even enjoy playing with you) I accepted i am a lesbian like ocd said I should but why do I still love my ex and hope I marry him😭 + I couldn’t bring myself to be interested in females. OCD leave me alone because I don’t enjoy this game again! I’m not homophobic at all but denouncing Im straight doesn’t feel like home and I still find myself yearning for only men
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