So ocd/hocd

@Sp1999 I was doing ok the last couple days and last night, I was at my sisters for a girls night, there was all my sisters, my mum and a few of their friends and they was talking about how people are gay, if they chose to or they change or they r born like it. Obviously it triggered me, ans my mum was like if any of my kids were to be that would be fine etc. and now I’m triggered ans my brain has been ruminating ever since that conversation when before that convo I was actually doing okay.

@Anonymous But what were You ruminating about? Like, what's your worry about that conversation? What does that conversation has to do with you, your life and your choices? It's a taboo theme, it doesn't involve You, also, You can tell me what you are feeling, because my family also talks about that, My family in the other hand don't talk goog about them, i just worry about "i'm not homophobic and i don't want to be homophobic, neither i'm gay, and before OCD ive never thought bad about them community, also i used to read a Lot of gay mangas and anime and never wanted to be gay, i just enjoyed it while having my boyfriend, never hd a problem with they community, not that i thought about them everyday.. for me the answer to the question of what i thought about gay people was : "it's their choice" just that.. i hate this you know but, yes, tell me what you are feeling about that

@Anonymous How to know if false attraction is false and not our true desire

@Anonymous Now when i read that my mind tells me that i am doing that and that im in denial

@Anonymous Like it creates a fake narrative that I enjoy these thoughts when im pretty sure I don’t and i don’t like them but like im so scared like how do i know if its negativ feelings

@Anonymous @Sp1999 I was doing ok the last couple days and last night, I was at my sisters for a girls night, there was all my sisters, my mum and a few of their friends and they was talking about how people are gay, if they chose to or they change or they r born like it. Obviously it triggered me, ans my mum was like if any of my kids were to be that would be fine etc. and now I’m triggered ans my brain has been ruminating ever since that conversation when before that convo I was actually doing okay.

@Anonymous Me too

@Anonymous I’m triggered by this bc that’s how it feels for me

@Sp1999 Sorry I didn’t mean to trigger you, how r u feeling about this theme?

@Anonymous It’s okay I’m not mad about it, I can’t help it. It’s all part of ocd. I’m just eh you know ?

@Sp1999 I totally get that, how ling ahve you had this theme?

@Anonymous Oof honestly since 2020 I believe

@Sp1999 Mine first started in 2018 or 2019 I think and went away after a year or two and it now back down e July

@Anonymous Honestly I have no clue if it’s ocd or not but at this point I’m gonna just let life take its course