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What’s up
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@Sp1999 I was doing ok the last couple days and last night, I was at my sisters for a girls night, there was all my sisters, my mum and a few of their friends and they was talking about how people are gay, if they chose to or they change or they r born like it. Obviously it triggered me, ans my mum was like if any of my kids were to be that would be fine etc. and now I’m triggered ans my brain has been ruminating ever since that conversation when before that convo I was actually doing okay.
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@Anonymous But what were You ruminating about? Like, what's your worry about that conversation? What does that conversation has to do with you, your life and your choices? It's a taboo theme, it doesn't involve You, also, You can tell me what you are feeling, because my family also talks about that, My family in the other hand don't talk goog about them, i just worry about "i'm not homophobic and i don't want to be homophobic, neither i'm gay, and before OCD ive never thought bad about them community, also i used to read a Lot of gay mangas and anime and never wanted to be gay, i just enjoyed it while having my boyfriend, never hd a problem with they community, not that i thought about them everyday.. for me the answer to the question of what i thought about gay people was : "it's their choice" just that.. i hate this you know but, yes, tell me what you are feeling about that
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@Anonymous How to know if false attraction is false and not our true desire
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@Anonymous Now when i read that my mind tells me that i am doing that and that im in denial
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@Anonymous Like it creates a fake narrative that I enjoy these thoughts when im pretty sure I don’t and i don’t like them but like im so scared like how do i know if its negativ feelings
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@Anonymous @Sp1999 I was doing ok the last couple days and last night, I was at my sisters for a girls night, there was all my sisters, my mum and a few of their friends and they was talking about how people are gay, if they chose to or they change or they r born like it. Obviously it triggered me, ans my mum was like if any of my kids were to be that would be fine etc. and now I’m triggered ans my brain has been ruminating ever since that conversation when before that convo I was actually doing okay.
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@Anonymous Me too
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@Anonymous I’m triggered by this bc that’s how it feels for me
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@Sp1999 Sorry I didn’t mean to trigger you, how r u feeling about this theme?
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@Anonymous It’s okay I’m not mad about it, I can’t help it. It’s all part of ocd. I’m just eh you know ?
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@Sp1999 I totally get that, how ling ahve you had this theme?
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@Anonymous Oof honestly since 2020 I believe
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@Sp1999 Mine first started in 2018 or 2019 I think and went away after a year or two and it now back down e July
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@Anonymous Honestly I have no clue if it’s ocd or not but at this point I’m gonna just let life take its course
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So my ocd theme changed to sexual orientation ocd last December after I heard a popular video "hi, I'm Gibby" and I went like the Gibby sounds like "gay", then I started saying the phrase and over days, I started getting intrusive thoughts "I'm gay" .(I have had other ocd themes: (magical thinking ocd, symmetry ocd, health concern ocd, religious and spirituality ocd and harm ocd ever since I was 12, they just come and go)....I struggle with other conditions(ASD and bipolar disorder). I have never struggled with sexuality or questioned it because I have only liked males right from when I was in grade 1🥲...I still like them. SO-OCD is very frustrating because deep down I know I'm straight and there's no evidence I'm not but the intrusive thoughts and compulsions to get relief (the cycle) won't stop. I'm on fluoxetine(Prozac) and it did help my symptoms but lately I realised I'm more consumed with compulsions and idk but I think it's reducing the effects of the drugs?.. I see an attractive female and my mind goes like you found her attractive you must be gay or I want to go out and do sumn"what if you discover you like them or are gay" ...idk it's frustrating, very and I'm tired. I don't even get turned on by same sex or any😭that what even makes it more confusing.+ It's almost like I'm now hypervigilant when Watching videos or Instagram reels...it making me forget that finding someone physically attractive≠sexual attraction...idk if anyone gets me...(Rn my ocd themes are SO-OCD and religious and spirituality ocd) SO-OCD is frustrating, I'm tireddd...how can I never have struggled with sexuality for almost a decade and half but I'm having it now(it's started two months ago)...who has had/have this theme??
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So with my theme of ocd, ( hocd ) I get persistent intrusive images, and thoughts. It’s not like one or two a day. Like if I’m out for the whole day they’re constant. I feel I can’t even look at a girl now without her intrusive thoughts about her or about me fancying her and even sexual intrusive thoughts.. It’s awful. It’s everywhere I look. Is this common with ocd with any themes? Like is it constant for you guys too?
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I wanted to voice that homosexuals can get HOCD too. I remember when i was younger and knew i was gay i still got HOCD one time when watching The Office. I thought Pam was so pretty and then started doubting my whole identity because what if i am straight? Oh god, what a terror if i was heterosexual. But anyway, thought that maybe this would help heteros with HOCD by knowing that this is a universal symptom across OCD sufferers of all sexual orientations. A big problem is calling this subtype “Homosexual OCD,” because its not. It has nothing to do with being homo or hetero or bi or anything. Its just OCD being a bully. I think labelling subtypes is an issue altogether, as it can unconsciously make people feel like its not just OCD. But it is. Does this make any sense? What are yall’s thoughts on this? Or is this just my OCD talking? (Im not seeking reassurance just genuinely find this interesting) TLDR; each time we “qualify” OCD with a subtype, we reinforce that the subtype is part of the issue. In reality, OCD is just a broken loop in our brains, and thoughts are just thoughts. And Pam Beesly is a hottie.
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