False memory OCD HELP!!!!

I have been battling with something I had a week ago. Long story short, I have ROCD. My obsessions tend to be around guys (intention, etc). I’ve been in a relationship for 2.5 years now. What made me develop OCD was that I was being unfaithful to my partner by texting another person I wasn’t supposed to be. That really brought our relationship to thin ice and since I’ve been experiencing constant questioning how I act toward guys. Last week, I encountered guy at customer service who seemed very friendly. I was being nice and chill and careless if I was being nice but I also remember keeping my seriousness. That has triggered me bc I’m usually very serious with guys but I know I did not have a bad intention. In the midst of the guy saying something and I know I was smiling at something the guy said, I had a thought that said “who cares be friendly, your boyfriend is not around” and I don’t know if I smiled a bit more or what. And obviously my boyfriend I confessed and explained that I can’t remember and he said that he doesn’t tolerate if I acted on something that has to do with doing it behind his back. I know false memories are treated with uncertainty but I need to know. Help please any advice!

sophia918

Date posted: 1y

you’re never gonna get out of conversations with other guys, friendly or not. that’s just life. also that thought of being friendly cause your bf isn’t around is an intrusive thought. don’t give it so much meaning. also life is far far far too short to ruminate on conversations and interactions with other people. also you don’t need to confess everything to your bf. that puts stress on him and for no good reason. obviously you care for him or you wouldn’t be making a post on this app about your relationship. trust that your care for him will be the glue that holds your end of the relationship together. you’re okay!! i know this is hard. i went through it too. i’ve also been disrespectful to my boyfriend before too. but you live and you learn. i certainly have!

kathuexo

Date posted: 1y

@sophia918 Thank you so much! You definitely made me feel better. I’m at a rock bottom point right now. I come to realize that maybe I am over analyzing how I acted after that thought came into play. It was definitely intrusive because I have never experienced a thought like that especially of doing something behind my boyfriend’s back. I know I would never be capable. Thoughts always make everything seem so real. We as ocd sufferers tend to be so hyperaware of conversations and how we reacted every moment. Thank you!!

sophia918

Date posted: 1y

@kathuexo tell me about it. it’s miserable. but it’s us making ourselves feel that way. no more!! it’s such a waste of time and energy

kathuexo

Date posted: 1y

@sophia918 @sophia918 that’s true! What’s driving my anxiety is if I acted on that thought of being more friendly! If I smiled a little more or became nicer and I can’t remember. I don’t know what to do but thank you for advice!

sophia918

Date posted: 1y

@kathuexo it’s time a crime to be nice and smiley with strangers! that’s normal. and you probably did do that. but so do most everyone i know. the instrusive thoughts are just making it into something it’s not and ever was

lizzieeeee

Date posted: 1y

Hey queen. I’m dealing with something similar now. A coworker was slightly flirty with me and now I’m questioning everything and having intrusive thoughts about that coworker. It feels horrible. My mind is convincing me things happened that didn’t. And that I felt things I didn’t. It’s hard. I had similar thoughts to you and didn’t notice them at first then I started feeling guilty and thinking “why did I think that?” “What does that mean?” “Did I cheat?” “Am I attention seeking”? “Do I feel attracted to someone else” … etc 😭 tbh it gets worse for me when I start confessing so I guess try to not confess LOL it always makes it worse for me Im sorry ur dealing with this, I feel u <3 ur not alone

dee012

Date posted: 25w

False memory ocd Help Please

Any advice? I just got triggered by false memory OCD. There is no indicator or memory of me doing anything bad, only the what if. So how can I deal with uncertainty because if I did do the false memory it would go against my morals?? Not something extremely unforgivable just like not ideal and against my morals… I don’t know if it happened. I have no memory of my false memory happen only the “what if” which is enough to scare me FOR CONTEXT: I was in the mental hospital when I was 16, and made a few friends. Some just a grade below me, so 14-15. I remember bringing up in convo someone I met previously at the mental hospital earlier in that year a different time I was hospitalized , to which a boy responded he knew her, and they did (seggsual) stuff at their school. The girl I was talking about at that time was 14. So im assuming the boy was 14 as well. 13 and up is together in the hospital, so he couldn’t be younger than 13. I have no memories of him flirting with me or me flirting with him. Or anything bad happening. Literally just “what if”.. or what if he wasn’t 14 but 13 and u said something inappropriate or flirted with him. I will never be able to know what happened and I’m sick thinking about this. 13 and 16 is NOT WITHIN MY MORALS. I am worried because the only inappropriate I guess convo had is when he was telling me what happened between him and that girl I knew. I also remember him having a bulge down there and it freaked me out and made me feel weird at the time because I noticed it. (At this time I was already diagnosed with OCD and experienced POCD) I try to tell myself maybe maybe not. But the what if it did happen makes me feel like a p33do, and me thinking it didn’t happen doesn’t satisfy me because I don’t have 100 percent certainty

bbumblebee

Date posted: 23w

False memories in ROCD

Hi everyone!! This is a new kind of theme I’m dealing with. My brain will come up with false memories of my boyfriend saying awful things about my family or me…deep down I know it’s not real. The more I think about it though, the more real these “memories” feel. How do I deal?

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Date posted: 23w

False memory ocd

Hey everyone, I’m still struggling a bit with false memory ocd. Mine revolves around my relationship. There are some things I have remembered that occurred early on in the relationship, whether someone texted me on Snapchat or TikTok etc. and it was old friends of mine from a friend group. In the friend group it was me and about couple guys and girls. I remember there being an instance where one of the guys had messaged me on Snapchat after I had posted something about a tv show or I had posted a picture of me and my mom and they reached out to me saying something and I honestly can’t remember at all what they had said to me but I’m pretty sure i remember I responded with “Lol” or “Thank you” , and I think the reason I’m really struggling right now is that I can’t remember hardly anything about the text at all. And of course, my ocd is trying to convince me that it was either a flirty chat, or something else. I also want to mention that I unadded a lot of people off my snap, mostly guys on TikTok etc after dating my boyfriend because I felt like that was respectful. And even after doing that, my OCD was trying to convince me that I un added them because I was hiding something or I was on adding them because I didn’t want my boyfriend to see that they were on my Snapchat, which was not the case at all. I think I’m just really struggling because I think about past events that have happened in my mind is trying to convince me that something else happened, rather than allowing me to remember what actually went on. I just wanted to come on here and ask if anyone else struggles with something like this because it’s been really bothering me the past couple days and I know I would never do anything to hurt my boyfriend because I love him so much it’s just I freak out constantly, and it bothers me a lot.

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